I am so damn upset. A girl that I thought was nice, even if a little overzealous, found out where I live. A few months ago, I had to firmly ask her to please not hang around my property. I get that she feels a connection to me, but this is my PRIVATE home. A place I come to unwind and relax. I brought up to her how terrible it made me feel to be scared to go outside. I kept seeing her everywhere! She let her dog shit and piss in my lawn that is littered with signs asking people to NOT let their dogs shit and piss there. She came back once or twice a week! She would yell up to me in my HOME asking for bags to clean her dogs shit with, anything to get me engaged with her. She doesn't seem to understand how this could make a person feel...well...STALKED.

I asked her to PLEASE not hang around my house anymore. (I've seen her outside more than my neighbors, and she doesn't live anywhere around here!) I felt like I had hammered it home, and that she finally understood that her actions were scaring me, not making me want to know her! After taking a few months off from prowling around my house, I came home the other day from work. The second I popped out of my car, there she was. I felt VERY nervous, but her hair was longer, and she had braces, so I wasn't sure if that was her. When she introduced herself, she gave me a different name, so she threw me off. In my driveway, she requested two pictures with her. I try to be nice, and even though I had just suffered two and a half long hours of traffic from work, I gave her a smile and we took them.

However, as I was walking up my driveway to my garage, she asked me to come out to eat with her. This is the same thing the girl I was scared of used to ask me. I excused myself and hurried into my garage to shut the door. I looked up my former staklker on the net, and sure as shit, there she was, same girl. I even asked her, and she admitted that it was her.

Now this woman is threatening to give out my address to the public. Which, if she is dumb enough to do, I can slap her with a restraining order. I can also sue her, because I will be able to prove that by her giving out my address, she has caused emotional distress and put my life in danger.

I love my fans, and I wish I could be everything they want me to be, but this person scares me to my core. I am writing about it to not only get it off my chest...but to have this documented when I do get my restraining order, along with her comments to others giving out my address. Some days, I really feel like I should give even more than I do to my fans. However, on days like this, I wonder if I have given too much. I am fucking scared of this person, and I am SO sad that we now have to consider MOVING out of our BRAND NEW HOME to get away from her! Everytime I think about her, I feel like crying. She has violated my home, and it has left me feeling exposed, and incredibly unsafe! If this girl can't understand that she IS a stalker, and IS scaring me, who knows what else she will do!?

 I will post as much as I can to expose what is going on in my life. I want to feel SAFE and SECURE, and I don't. I am afraid to live here anymore! I will NOT post her site, or name, or even the letters she is sending out threatening me....because unlike HER, I do NOT want to make someone else feel unsafe!