So, I have decided to spend the next few months writing. I know a few of you remember how I said I wanted to write a book. I have spent a long time thinking about it. I also asked for advice from some great authors I know. I guess I want to write a book to finish the healing of old wounds. I just feel that by writing it down, that I will be free from it. I also would like to have my story out there for those who are stuck in similar situations. I want to help people. I also want to help myself. I am going to take a deep long look at my life up to this point.
I miss my family already. I never feel like I get to spend as much time as I need to with them. It's hard living far away from te majority of people you hold dear. I am slow to make friends. I am trying to learn to let down my guard a little(well, lets say A LOT). I have a select group of friends that I keep near. I don't leave room to let anyone else in. It feels like everyone has some sort of agenda, even if they don't. I have to learn to not live in the extreme. Either I am too trusting and get burned, or I am too guarded, and feel alone.
I am really beginning to enjoy living in California. I didn't used to like it, but I think it is because it's so far away from everyone I know. When I lived in NYC, it was easier to travel between there and Chicago. California is beautiful, and I m really blessed to be here. The ocean, the mountains, the desert, everything is here! I can see why my husband says he will never live anywhere else. Everyday we get to breathe the salty ocean air (and smog) it's healing. ; )
I was supposed to go out to dinner with my baby tonight, but I have busted out in hives. I must have got something on my face. I cleaned the house today, and we think it may have been a cleaning product that has done me in. I think I have the world's shittiest immune system. Something is always happening with my health. Chris would think I was just faking it if I didn't swell up, burn up, throw up, etc. I will go long periods fit as can be, and then suddenly I get slammed with something. I am sure this will go away in the morning. For now? I aint leaving this house!
I've been working on my new website www.adriannemcurry.com It's a lot of fun. I designed my new myspace layout to match the new site. I have a ton of work to do uploading pics videos, etc.
Ok, was that random enough for you? I'm just in a really good reflective mood.