You may know very little if anything at all about the band I am in, Autonym, and you may care even less about my opinion regarding Christianity within hardcore and, (much) more broadly, punk music. However, I have been on a US Tour, The Fierce Forces of the Fall, for the past three weeks and we have played quite a few Christian venues across the country. I have seen some things and come to some conclusions, after much thought and discussion, regarding very forthright Christianity in our music scene.
My Background
I never grew up with a Christian band influence. Although Autonym is based in Los Angeles and we all live there currently, I am originally from Philadelphia and grew up going to R5 Productions shows at the basement of the First Unitarian Church, which really has no religious influence. I am indeed very thankful for that as I had the ability to come to my own conclusions (aside from family influence which comes with best of intentions) regarding something as important as the faith in a higher power.
HIn order for you to first give my opinion even the slightest chance, you must know that I myself was a Christian. I was raised Catholic. I went to church every single week and went to Catholic school until 11th grade. I know the bible like the back of my hand. I have read every single chapter and every verse. I want you to know this because I want people who read this to understand that I harbor no ill will toward Christianity or people who choose to follow the faith. If interpreted in the proper way, as with any religion, it can be a very peaceful and wise path for one to choose, regardless of my personal belief in its validity, which is really inconsequential and unimportant to anyone that finds peace in their personal religion.
I now personally believe I no longer need religion as a guide. I have learned right and wrong through my family and, yes, Catholicism. The question as to whether I would have learned the values and ethics I now hold without religion is neither here nor there, but I tend to believe that humanity is naturally a pack that wishes to support others, even if some stray from the pack to promote hate or death. I no longer have a desire to find the truth as to whether or not there is a God. There seems to me no way to be sure and, quite frankly, I don't believe it matters one bit. The suggestions that you would need to accept Jesus as your personal savior or even need the promise of a heaven in order to be a good person strikes me as absurd. Be a good person to be a good person. We all know right and wrong. It works for me to be just that simple. I may sound preachy myself right now but I am more standing up for every kid who does not accept Jesus as his personal savior and is being told by his Christian zealot friends that he or she is going to hell because they don't believe Jesus is the savior.
My Opinion
The interpretation of certain beliefs and writings really brings me to my core concern with Christianity in hardcore. I won't try to suggest the normal reasons Christianity doesn't belong in punk music i.e. Christianity is right wing so it doesn't belong in the generally leftist ideals of punk music (although a case could be made). Christian hardcore, as I have seen it on this tour, has become something that seems to be mass marketed to the music consumers like some Tickle-Me-Elmo at Christmas. Being Christian and/or being straight-edge now seem to be the cool things to do and that is the end reasoning. There is no deep examination of faith, something I personally believe really cannot happen until you're at least well through your teens. These Christian bands are converting young minds to Christianity without teaching them a single thing about the faith. In essence these bands are saying, "Look how in we are with our hair and clothes, and also we love Jesus too, so follow our religion if you would like to be in the crowd."
You may respond that straight edge has been around for quite some time. Why am I lashing out mainly at Christianity? Well, while these "scenes" seem to be meshing, straight edge seems to be a much more positive thing with less room for incorrect interpretation in concept (although there are still the straight edge tough guy crews beating up drinkers). For the record, I do not do any substances aside from the occasional drink and most definitely do not consider myself straight-edge. It is a personal choice and I judge no one for the substances they choose to put in their bodies. Straight edge began, if you don't know, as a movement started by Minor Threat as an alternative to the drug-induced rock culture of the times. Ian MacKaye, frontman of Fugazi and Minor Threat, has since stated that he regrets ever starting straight-edge as a result of what it has become. I often wonder how disgusted Jesus would be with the majority of Christianity and the interpretations of his teachings.
If you are a true believer in Christianity, Jesus did indeed say, according to the New Testament, that you must accept him as your savior in order to gain entry into heaven (this is the interpretation according to most Christian faiths). Both hell and purgatory, according to the bible, are quite awful places to go in terms of eternal suffering and such. Are you (yes, you the 12 year old with the straightened black hair and girl's jeans) sure that you know the faith you're following? If someone you know is gay, and they are acting it out in any way, they are in a perpetual state of sin. Do you have any friends who aren't Christian? Well, if you do, according to your faith, none of them are going to heaven. They will eternally suffer and burn in either hell or purgatory. These are just a couple examples of the faith you are following. If you keep choosing to support bands like Underoath, these are the ideals and values you as a listener and consumer are supporting. Unfortunately, it cannot simply be about the music. I did not choose to make it this way. Underoath and other bands that push Christianity during their performances are the ones who made this scene about something other than the music. All it takes to push Christianity during a live set is to tell everyone you could not have done the show without "your Lord and personal savior, Jesus Christ." I have personally heard Underoath and many others say this.
Mind you, I have no problem with freedom of speech and I wish, as you'll see below, that these Christian venues we've played would allow more free speech. These bands however, are not expressing their Christian beliefs at shows, like the beliefs I mentioned early. They express a hip new trend and attach Christianity to it in an attempt to get young, impressionable minds to join their cause without knowing much, if anything, about the faith. This is true irresponsibility. I am certainly not telling anyone, even bands, not to be Christian. It is a personal choice
The other side, as I have seen on this tour, is the bands (NOT the bands on the full tour who were all very supportive of us), which have little to no talent in terms of playing their instruments and little to no true beliefs or morality, attach the Christian name to themselves in order to further their sales. This is almost just as unfortunate as the first type of Christian band as they are simply riding another wave. You will see from my experiences below just how disgraceful these bands can be.
My Experiences
- We have been approached many times and asked if we were a "Christian band" and when we answer, "No," the person will choose not to buy our merchandise. I know this is personal choice but it shows the stranglehold the Christian hardcore culture has over these impressionable minds.
- Many Christian venues in which we have played have declared, "Any cursing and the bands do not get their guarantees." Fair enough, as I do not own the place and we are guests. However, as a responsible promoter of artistic expression, these promoters should be more open in terms of songs having certain language in them they deem unacceptable. I was stopped mid-set and told to change my language. I have never been so shocked and rudely interrupted on stage before.
- Many of the opening bands tell the young kids to follow Jesus. I have seen these bands "hooking up" with obviously underage girls (But they didn't have intercourse so it's OK, right?). Perhaps this was acceptable in Jesus' time but not now here in the United States.
- I reached a breaking point at the show in Fort Wayne, Indiana, as one of the worst bands I ever heard opened and declared that the only reason they were a band was for their friend Jesus Christ and everyone should follow him. I then titled some of our songs some very lewd names in reference to biblical figures. I also took the time to explain that I hoped what the crowd would learn from my jokes (JOKES) and our set (somewhat over-the-top at times, especially that night) is that there is not one set way you need to be and that everyone should find their own path. We left the venue to find a brand new crack in our windshield and our van sprayed with milk. VERY Christian…
- After Tanner, drummer for Underminded, kindly found the kid (In one of the opening bands) who nursed our van and told him some bad things would happen if he didn't clean it, the kid chose to take off his shirt and wipe off the milk. This was an opportunity for the kid to reveal his Steve-O-esque tattoo of Jesus on his back. He excitedly talked to his friends about how he wanted to add a hand that made Jesus holding a six-pack and smoking a cigarette. These are the role models these Christian kids, who know very little else, are following with such ferocity that they no longer buy non-Christian band merchandise.
- I have many other similar stories but will stop there for the sake of being repetitive
My Final Say
Christianity can be a good guide for someone feeling lost. However, when it acts as anything other than a guide, you reach degrees of extremism that can be isolating and denigrating towards those raised or believing differently. Punk music and the venues that promote punk, began, and still can be, a place for people ostracized from the mainstream or needing a different outlet for their emotions. People are attracted to the thought and lyrics our underground music provides and these people, who do not get enough out of mainstream music, find meaning in our small scene. Musicians and listeners must be more responsible and true to the music that has given so much to all of us. Young minds are seeking the comfort of music they can relate to. They do not need another voice telling them what to believe.
-Will Angelos, Autonym