Great... Summer was going along pretty fine. I pushed myself hard with school and work to get everything done the best that I could. Now I'm feeling it and I see a crash coming soon. I don't feel like doing classwork (I still do it). I have an exam tomorrow at 4:15pm, that I am not prepared for (I have 7 hours to study hard). SFGA is just one big jumble to me as far as what is going on. Lately I have just been coming in just to pass the day one by one. There's no plan, no set course. I just come in, do my thing, and go home. There's no consistancy of anything, so much is up in the air or on a need to know basis. new bosses, new people, new areas... Things keep changing and still have some time yet before they settle.

Things are starting to eat at me. It hasn't gotten bad, but I can feel something coming whether it be a breakdown or an overhaul of my entire schedule.

I love... (as sarcastic as you can read them)
*how the only people that ever show any interest in me are 16-17 yr olds and/or are just not apealing to me.
*everyone that I have liked that either have looked right through me or showed no interest... burn...
*my monday two hour commute for a math class that I'm taking for a third time and really need to pass.
*the wednsday and thursday one hour commute for the same class.
*being the kind of person that wear's his heart on his shoulders.
*being easily swayed by his emotions
*those feelings that choke you up
*trying to understand other people
*having three hours (if that) to myself between work and school and getting nothing out of it.
*fathers that don't help pay for schooling
*cashires with rotten/disrespectful language
*cashires that use my cell to call my ex
*the fact that I still have her number... wtf
*butting heads with co-workers
*missing friends
*having crushes
*feeling lonely
*being the last one to call
*being outa the loop
*feeling forgotten
*many more things

i love being... well... stubborn enough to put up with it all in hopes of a better day. <3 (i'm not lost yet)