(Sorry, I know this is insanely long, but it's very close to my heart and I'd truly appreciate if you could read it!!)
Hey Guys,
Hope everyone's doing GREAT, and enjoying the lovely spring weather!! I just wanted to thank EVERYONE who came to my show at the NEW ORLEANS JAZZ FESTIVAL yesterday--it has to have been THE funnest show I've ever done, without a doubt. There's just such a difference between playing an industry show for business executives, and playing a show for real music-fans...the latter DEFINITELY makes for a better performance!!
For starters, when you're playing for a real music-crowd, people don't talk during the performance--they just DON'T. They actually LISTEN to what you're communicating, and because the Big Easy is such a real "music-town", the crowd seemed to respond to some of my less poppy, "grittier", more obscure material, like my new song "Hard As Hell" (you know--the kind of songs that don't make for hit singles because they're slightly more complex and not as immediately "get-able"). Everyone after the show kept saying to me-- "keep doing that Bonnie Raitt, blusey thing, girl!!"
What excited me the most was that the court-yard was only supposed to hold 500 people MAX, and yet, somehow 2,000 people ended up crowding in to see the show, which is apparently a real record-breaker in terms of attendance for the smaller stages at Jazz-Fest!! I was extremely appreciative that everyone stayed for the whole show too-- in my past experiences with playing festivals, the audience usually gets up and meanders around, and it's kind of hard to "keep them there", so I'm just thrilled that so many people stuck around to hear the music!
Well, I'm rambling now (as always), so I'm going to go unpack (just flew back to NYC tonight!)--I've got to get away from this computer! I know it's ridiculous, and I should have a thicker skin by now and just plain NOT CARE, but I can't help but be a little bummed out because the incredibly cruel, bullying Perez Hilton (this tabloid guy who calls himself the "queen of media") just put up a horrible picture of me on his site and basically in so many words called me ugly, or rather, wrote that I'm "not that bad, actually, I'm just no supermodel"...
I just feel like saying: "YES, my mom and I look completely different, and I'm OK with that. I like that I look unique, or more "exotic"--I don't want to look like everybody else, and I also don't want to look like a supermodel--I just want to look like ME!" (sorry if this sounds like a repeat of my last blog, but I just have to VENT)...
Oh well, I guess that's a part of the crap that comes with the industry--those sites LOVE putting bad pictures up, and everybody has a few unflattering shots--especially on the red-carpet! I'm still not comfortable posing on it, and (who knows?) maybe I never will be, but I'm just so OVER being compared to my mom looks-wise! I'm happy to have a lot of my father's features (especially his eyes and lips)--I think he's very handsome, and I'm quite sick of hearing people call HIM ugly--I think he has a very soulful face--the face of someone with character and integrity--who has LIVED, and has something important to say.
I just can't help but wonder these days: why does the media's idea of beauty have to always fit inside such a conventional box? Why doesn't the media promote any sense of individuality and open-mindedness? My boyfriend always tells me how much he loves my dimples and how I have a "cute over-bite" when I smile, as well as this scar on my chest that I used to be self-conscious about-- he calls it my "sexy mark", (yes--he's a keeper!!)-- so if these imperfections are what our partners end up growing to love so much about us, why isn't this celebrated as a natural, human truth? Why is it hidden, and replaced with this false truth that everybody's supposed to aspire to look like a "supermodel" (whatever looking like a super-model entails--I have no clue). When my mom saw that Perez Hilton thing, she was like, "OK, what's his point?--I have hundreds of bad pictures taken of me, and I'm a supermodel! Should I release them to the media so everyone can see that NOBODY is perfect?" (I love her for that).
It's just rather depressing on a larger, societal level because apparently his tabloid site gets an average of 6 million hits a day (internationally), and I just feel like--WHAT IS HAPPENING TO THIS WORLD? Why would 6 MILLION PEOPLE be on a site that does nothing but exploit, objectify, ridicule, and degrade public figures for no reason? Oh well, I know I shouldn't care--I guess I'm just a bit of an idealist and I wish the media wasn't so shallow and affected. It's like, why do these people get such a high out of bringing others down for no real reason?
I must say, I think this Perez Hilton guy is quite dangerous because has actually made a BUSINESS out of calling people "fat, ugly whores!" Why is this? Is it because the general public has somehow become so obsessed with the media that it is entirely acceptable to trash public figures (and their children) and call them all sorts of names JUST FOR THE HECK OF IT? I mean, there was even some blogger on there picking a part the appearance of my 8 year-old sister--it made me sick to my stomach to see that. She's just a little girl--and she's my adorable, beautiful little sister! I cried my eyes out when I saw that, I was so disgusted.
Sorry, I don't mean to get preachy on you guys--I guess I'm just venting. I also wanted to get all of this out there because I don't think there's a lot of people inside of the media who talk openly about it's artificiality, and really question why this is happening, and I think it's about time we started. Because the media really is in a terrible place right now, and I truly feel like the more tabloid magazines we buy, and the more tabloid sites we blog on, the more we are feeding into this dangerous obsession with the media that is spiraling out of control.
Thanks for reading this guys... this subject is very close to my heart, so I had a lot to say about it, and those of you who actually finished reading this whole thing are troopers : )
I'd be very interested to hear from all of you about this--please write me or post something on here!!
Love,
Lex