I love Pakistan and I don't want to leave. I want to come back here and work towards something. I have a couple of meetings this week with some News channels. Pakistan is experiencing a media boom at the moment and I sense it's an ideal opportunity to get involved.

Dawn News and Geo News both have English language programmes and I can so see where and how the could improve. At the same time it seems like the industry is crying out for educated English speakers and with my 12 years in telly news...well all I'm saying is that I need to be here. Had a chat with the Islamabad bureau chief of Al Jazeera English as well and hope to meet him before I leave....finger crossed.

I am more passionate about news broadcasting from Pakistan than I am form the Uk at this point in my life. There is just so much going on here politically, socially. I am enthralled. The country seems like its at a turning point and I want to be part of it. Yesterday's suicide bomb attack close to where I'm staying is just one indicator of the state of things to come.

There've been 4 suicide attacks in seven days in the country and all appear to point towards a reaction against last weeks Red Mosque operation. Who are launching these attacks? Why? Who's next? What will Musharraf do about it? Can he survive politically? What impact will latest development have on the forthcoming general elections? Can terrorism really be tackled in a country where the gov't has no control over tribal areas from which the attacks seem to stem? What will the US do about it? Will they help instate or more maliable goverment to further its own objectives? So many questions, it's just so flipping fascinating to me.

I want to bring my experience and help where I can. I want Pakistan to have a world class media to help fully inform the Pakistani public so that they can get more actively involved. The underclasses appear to feel powerless...hence some say the turn towards radicalism. Women and radicalism...The Red Mosque caught the world's attention primarily cos of scenes of Burka clad women wielding batons. Is the only way for your average women to gain power throuh radicalism. It seems to me that radicalism has empowered the women of a section of society here. It kinda makes sense doesnt it. When the position and status of most women here is so marginalised, suddenly they have been able to commander the attention of the gov't and authorities. Well wouldn't you?

You know forget the money side of it..I'd be lucky to make half of what I could make in the UK but even so my life would be very comfortable here.

Oh Gosh and then there's getting involved with politics. Three are 3 main oppostion parties to President Gen. Musharraf's dictatorship and Imran Khan (former cricketer and ex husb of tacky heiress Jemima)'s party impresses me most so far. So I've got hold of his number and am about to email him to find out what I can do for the party.

I sense I'm about to embark on a new stage in my life.  

Edit: Imran Khan's party Tareekh-e-Insaf http://www.insaf.org.pk/