I realized a lot of people are blogging and I am not... People are getting things, ideas, thoughts off their chest and letting them run loose for the world to see. It is an interesting time for communication! I am sorry I don't share more, maybe I feel that nobody really cares about what I have to say, yet on the other hand I hope that what I write on these pages allows people to think about their own life and how they are living and sharing it.

Months have passed with so many experiences unfolding... the most poignant being the near loss of my father a few months ago. He suffered a huge asthma attack which led to him collapsing and being rushed to the hospital with his wife, Jane, by his side. Within hours my brother flew from London, I from Chicago and My sister drove up from LA to be with him. In the moments of his time in the ICU, my brother, sister, Jane and I would be with him as he slept in an unconscious state for several days, hold his hands and through meditation send him so much healing love and light. It was one of those times when nothing else mattered, I was in the NOW. Living and breathing, second by second, minute by minute... waiting for change in my fathers state of being. It was so real yet totally unreal. I felt everything and nothing. I knew in my heart it was not time for him to go and so I trusted that feeling and saw a strong and healthy man before me. We all did. The love that was in that hospital room was so pure, so strong, so beautiful.... All I could hear was a voice that told me not to put power into his appearance. His lying there in the human form was one thing, the transformations that were going on in the spirit was a totally different thing. This helped me immensely.

My father recovered and was home before the weeks end. We were all relieved and happy to see him scratch his head in the usual manner. Dad was back. Happy and healthy yet reborn somehow. It made me see once more how amazing life is as we learn and evolve constantly.

In closing I wanted to say, if this near death experience is the worst "life" gets, it is not as scary as I thought it might be. Not to sound too off handed with this thought but we all come and we all go. I saw a beautiful strong spirit inside my father, a spirit that will never leave me, no matter what the human form decides to do. We are all one, connected on a much much greater level. I saw this and felt this so profoundly throughout this experience... There is no real end and knowing this gives me a sense of peace. We have choices and I believe the more we listen to our heart/spirit/soul/inner voice, we will let go of fear and move with trust on our journey. This beautiful journey that we have chosen to experience...

With this I say, learn to let go and let God lead the way, the true voice, the fearless, beautiful God inside all of us... something I am doing more and more each day.