This is my first blog I've ever posted. I feel like the truth needs to be told about my experience on Real Chance of Love and also what happened after the cameras were off...

I had an amazing time on Real Chance of Love. I made some amazing friends and I fell for Real. Anyone who says that reality tv is fake or the people are acting, well that's your opinion. But I was NOT acting! I am NOT fake! Very very far from it infact. What I felt for Real was sooo real. I will always hold this experience very dear to my heart.

After Real Chance wrapped, Real and I had a great relationship (over the phone). We stayed in contact everyday, texting, calling, I even went out to stay with him for 5 days over Labor Day weekend. I thought everything was fine, I had a blast getting to know his family better. I thought we were in love, we talked about me moving out there and etc...But when I got back, we would talk on the phone he had changed. I didn't understand why he was acting so distant. I then started to find out he was in contact with some of the other girls from the show, not just as friends, but saying he wanted to fly them to see him and other things. When I confronted him about this he denied it and then said I couldn't handle his life style and that he couldn't be serious with anyone because it wasn't good for his career. Also, when I asked him about why he didn't share with me that he proposed to Hoops he said that it wasn't a big deal. I mean come on, it's a marriage proposal. How is that not a big deal. Believe me I am very very far from a jealous person, but when I have to see my boyfriend propose to another woman on national television along with millions of people with NO for warning, it hurt my feelings.

So, after that our relationship started to fizzle. We didn't see eye to eye on many things. Also, there were other things that happened in my life and I tried to reach out to him and he wasn't there for me.

I posted this video below because I am extremely upset by the fact that he said I went left field on him. THAT NEVER HAPPENED!!! I NEVER EVER checked his phone! How could I? I lived in Fargo. I never got jealous! I got hurt by the shady things that happened. I had so much love for Ahmad and I tried sooo hard to make it work. You guys have to understand, I was devistated when it didn't work out. I even thought maybe seeing him at reunion would recindle some of those feelings. We even went as far as to say we were going to try and make it work. But he has not reached out to me since.
I have a lot of love for Ahmad still. I would love to be friends and have him be a part of my life even still after everything that has happened. Whether that happens or not is in Gods hands. I don't regret my experience on the show, or falling for Ahmad, everything happens for a reason and I thank God everyday for the life his has let me live.

I wanna thank all of my supporters, my family, my friends, and formost God for all your love and support! I wouldn't be the women that I am today with out every single one of you! You guys have developed me into an amazing, strong women.

I wanna close on one more note. To all of you that think I'm weak, don't judge because you don't know me. And if you did know me, you would know that I am a very strong women. So what if I cry, I am extremely emotional, in all senses!!! And being emotional is something I am proud of because I show it all, I'm human! I get mad, pissed, sad, happy, ditsy, silly, crazy, tired, and I LAUGH AND SMILE A WHOLE HELL OF A LOT MORE THAN I CRY! So, do me a favor and do you and I'll do me! Stop hating, and start loving people for who they are.
 
Thanks again everyone, I love you all so much...xoxo Abbi LaNay Noah aka cornfed.......................... ..