Hello MySpace Friends,  

This is one of my earlier paintings that was inspired by a time when growing up became a very painful experience.  For as long as I can remember, I was always labeled the Black Sheep of the family, and was always made to feel like I did everything wrong no matter how hard I tried to be a good person.

My family is very old fashioned, and it was frowned upon when you spoke up for what you believed in, I think this is why I was labeled bad.

I also felt that my artistic ability was never taken seriously or encouraged,because it wasnt considered to be a real career. This is why it was a struggle for me to accept my natural artistic abilities for so long.

I was very outspoken, independent, and felt that just because I was a girl, it didnt mean that I should be suppressed, so I retaliated, but sometimes to no avail. A lot of the time I felt like I was drowning in my own tears of sadness not understanding why being born a girl was so tough. If anyone even tried looking deep and hard enough into my eyes, they would see the sadness and pain that had been a part of my life for so long.

However, I never let the sadness consume me because way deep down, buried in my aching heart was a little gleaming piece of hope that I had held on to, to help me get through the pain ( thats what the flower represents ).

For many years I held on to that hope and it became more apparent when I met my husband Carlos Garcia, with his encouragement and kindness, he was able to mold me into the person I am today. I am strong, proud, smart, and talented in many way, and its all thanks to never giving up and holding on to the little piece of hope I had left in my heart.

This is the message I want to send with my painting, that no matter how hard things may seem, always hold on to hope and believe that things will get better, and before you know it, they will!

Now years later, my parents and I are much closer, we get along great and theyre more encouraging and happy for my accomplishments then ever.
 

Your comments welcomed.