OH MY GOD! you used me! you used me tonight!

Sitting in the apartment feeling tired yet restless, I had the sudden urge for coffee. I couldn't settle for instant coffee i wanted it from EZ mart.. and I wanted it now! After we got the guys off of the couch we headed down the stairs for the car. Chad was leading our caffeine yearning parade. He open up the door to the outside, held it open for us all, and i look at Chad just in time for the most horrified look i have ever read on his face. We rushed out of the building to see what was the matter. A lifeless looking body laying outside of our door. Crouched down low, we call our familiar friends name out, and try to shake him to life. "wingnut! wingnut are you ok?!" he looks up confused at us. Joy came straight to my heart like a rushing wind on the beach. Thank you Jesus, is all that i could think of.

As he started explaining to us why he was lying there, drunkenness reeked off his breath. He said he had been trying to ring our doorbell, but we were making too much noise to hear his cries for help. He could see us walking back and forth between the windows of our apartment, praying God, please let my brother find me before i die on this sidewalk. He told us stories of things in his life that had been taken away, his wife, kids, car, bike, job, and anything else you need to survive this harsh world with. He sleeps in an abandoned building that has halfway been burnt to pieces, no water, no electricity... only parts of a roof that cover his head on a rainy day,  a feeding ground for blood thirsty insects. He told us his church wont let him back in, I mean.. this man KNOWS the word of God back and forth, but to him.. the only way that he knows to cope with his fear, hate, and loss is alcohol and lies.

We took wingnut to get something to eat and drink, even gave him a place to stay. God used me.. he used me tonight. If it wasn't for us leave to get some coffee, we would have never seen wingnut, never could have helped sober up this broken sole.. He loves us and we love him. God is so good... my friends, he will use you when you last expect it.. are you ready??

-samantha noelle