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Current mood:  inquisitive Category: Blogging
I sometimes get so overwhelmed by life, by everything that goes on around me that i'm not sure how to take it. People can be so deceptive and missleading. They tell you what they think you want to hear and not the truth. The ADD and Depression are getting worse day by day. I can literally feel when the hormones are different inside me. I go from being all happy and nothing bothers me to every little possible thing all around me bothers me. I hate feeling like this. I sometimes just stay in my truck and avoid human contact. Thats not like me at all, i mean i am a recluse by nature but im also an explorer by nature too. I love to interact with most people because i find them interesting. Im fascinated by how people think, how they do things. I am getting older and realizing how much my parents have just been playing it by ear. There is no book, or guide to tell you how to live your life or how to interact with others (except the Bible of course). We are what our parents were to some extent. We pick up things here and there about how they are in life and put our own spin on it. I am amazed to see how some people hold to some beliefs that make absolutely no sense. Maybe i just dont understand.
I have my own theory on how people turn out in life the way they do. I'm not sure what to call it exactly. It goes something like this. I think that our ways of doing things, our quarks if you want to call them that, are some how genetically passed down. A few things i have noticed lead me to this. Maybe i am wrong and completely off my rocker, who knows. I have noticed, just in my life, that i have inherited many more of my mother traits than my fathers as far as my emotions go. I am an emotional person, i suffer from ADD and Depression, i'm sensitive to others (sometimes), and there are many more ways i am like my mother. On the other hand, i have the ability to pick up something that is broken and fix it if i keep my cool about it. I study it, take it appart, put it back together. I try to gain an understanding of how it works. Its been like this all my life. Its not always consistant but i can pretty much learn how anything works by studying it and testing it. I do this with guitars, computers, cars, pretty much whatever i come across that needs to be fixed. My dad is the same way, give him enough time and he can fix most anything. Thats why so many people come to him to fix their vehicles, well that and he doesnt charge anything to fix them.
He also had a knack for playing guitar. He doesnt play the way i do, actually i havent seen him pick up a guitar in a few years now. But i digress, the fact remains that i have picked up certain things from my parents. I have also noticed things picked up by my grand parents. the way my grandpa baum used to be towords people. the tricks he would play, he was a very passive aggressive person. You didn't play a trick on Paw Paw or he got you back and horribly. I remember a story he once told me, he lived in Texas for a long time, of a guy that put a fake snake under his pillow i believe it was. Paw Paw got him back by going out west and getting a turantula and putting it in his bed. That was just the way he was. Im not saying that i am that mean but i have the tendencies of wanting to get back at people the same way. He also had a sense of family when he was older. He enjoyed seeing all his family, even if he didnt get along with them and that is something all my siblings have. We might hate each other but we love each other at the same time LOL. i know that last one made no sense but its true none the less.
To the point, what i mean to say is that i believe we get these things from our parents, grandparents and so on. However i believe we get them, or a variant of them from our genes. To get this point across i have an example of what i mean. I have heard of children being adopted that have never seen there biological parents and yet they do things there biological parents do. How does one pick up something from someone they have never been around? Or how can a child pickup a talent that both his parents never possesed? someting that maybe a grandparent had a knack for. Just something to think about.
7:46 AM
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