Ok...

So im growing up. Living life...I feel as though I am blessed

Life is changing, changing me and changin in general..I am trying to break bad habits. I am learning to be myself and live to please myself and those who are truly there for me and need me the most. I am trying to break the bad habit of living to impress those who are on the outside looking in. I've changed alot. People change over time, thats just the way life goes. I've lost good friends recently..not so much physically as emotionally. Its wierd how the people who you swear your the closest with can so easily forget about you. It hurts, but like all things it will pass over time...Sometimes I miss them but I can't just accept them back into my life. I can forgive them, which I have but I can't forget.

As I've grown I have been changing from a young man into a man, and its a difficult and tedious proccess. It is very difficult for me too learn my way, and become a man without positive father figure in my life. My mother does what she can but its not equivilant to a male figure. When I was younger I sometimes wondered why my father couldn't be a permanant figure in my life, but as I grew the want that I had for him in my life faded. Honestly sometimes I miss him, but I feel as though I don't need him anymore. I am in a point at my life where I've grown and matured passed his absence.

Here's to all of the people who are in my life but are not truly here for me..I know who you guys are. Please do not take me for me a fool..It is ok if you want to pretend that you are here for me and you can remain here. Just know that I know who you are and your not fooling me. I think very much when I am alone and I notice things that many of you think I dont. You'd be suprissed

This is too all the people who are truly here for me. Who I know I need in my life. I'd just like to say thank you. You few are needed more than you could ever imagine. It is you who keep me moving and striving to be a better man, and a better person in general. Honestly without you guys I don't know where'd I'd be. Your presence within my life is genuinely appreciated.

Few people know what I do, even fewer people know why I do it, and too you few I say thank you.