Ok, so this blog will def be a rant, because while I love my mother, she is sometimes a heartless bitch. So, tonight, after a great day, I found out that my great Aunt Catherine passed away almost a week ago at 95 years old. At first I was pissed because, hello, family here, close to her, loved her, visited as often as possible, only living link to my grandfather's family left, so yeah, I was pissed we hadn't heard right away AND that we missed the funeral bc no one told us. BUT, to make matters worse, is that my mom knew for over a day and didn't deem it important enough to pick up the damn phone and tell me. Oh yeah, and did I mention that I actually talked to my mother this afternoon and she mentioned NOTHING! How do I find out?! A freaking TEXT MESSAGE from my mom. Yeah, nice mom. Lovely. Then I get a voice mail from my mom saying stuff about depositing a check for me, and as a side note, your aunt died. So, what do I do? I call my little sis to find out how she's handling the news, only wait, mom hasn't called her. So I had to break the news. So not only was I freaking sad and devastated tonight, but I am beyond pissed at some of my immediate and extended family. I just can't freaking fathom why mom didn't tell me! I called my grams and she was upset this afternoon, and I had no idea why. Now I do. And I feel like a bitch bc she was upset and I wasn't bc I didn't know! Damn it! God! Such bull shit! Plus, if I don't call home and tell mom everything that is happening in my life, I get yelled at. WTF?! But, I guess a family member's death isn't freaking important right?! Again, total bull shit! Damn it! So fucking pissed and sad. Those two emotions do NOT allow for a good nights sleep, or basically any relief. Fuck! Ok, I'm freaking done. G'night.