After reviewing a friend of mine's blog, I began to think of my ten people to talk to, my ten things to say. And I was afraid that they would be too transparent. I still am, in a way, but, lessons that I've learned today, experiences I've been through lately that I haven't told to a soul, have changed my mind. Fuck the people who mind what I have to say. This is my time; not yours.

1.)    I miss laughing until our bellies bleed. Y'know?

2.)    You. You let me know that everything that I am really is amazing and I love you for it. So much that sometimes it freaks me the fuck out. We talk everyday; nothing's going to change that. You understand me better than anyone; nothing's going to change that. I might pull away at times, but, that's only because of how freaky I find all of this. <3.

3.)    You're my oldest friend. Well, one of them, anyway. You're fun to talk to, you always put me in my place, and you most certainly know your shit even if you make yourself come across as little Ms. Innocent. How do you do it? You get along with everyone and its pretty damn cool, if you ask me. I don't. I get along with most (even though I claim myself to be a bitch, and say I don't). Honestly, I'm probably just really very full of shit, in some ways. I don't mind lying. It sounds like an absolutely horrible thing to say, but, it's true. I like to make myself to come off a certain way and I'm not going to do anything in order to jeopardize it.

4.)    MY SECOND TWIN! HEY, GIRL, HEY! (And, yes. I did say that with a black ghetto girl voice. xD) I adore you. I adore staying on the phone with you all night, talking about revenge, being a wise-ass, making up jokes/bulletins that no one else will understanding and laughing through our bitching/bitcy-ness. It's not a bad trait that you have; it's a good one. I love you for it. What would I do without your texts when I'm upset about certain things???? You're perfect.

5.)    I miss you an awful lot; we stopped talking about stuff a long time ago. You were always funny, though. I real big-sister figure, and, when life started, it was almost disappointing because I miss our inside jokes almost more than anyone else's. You included me in poetry, for crying out loud.

6.)    I forced you into doing stuff that you didn't want to do, you drove me crazy, I got away from you, you took me back as your best friend, and then you disappeared. I miss you an awful lot, and I wish that anyone in the world knew where to find you. They don't. Are you even still alive?

7.)    You. I. Miss. You. Talking about stripping, freaking you out with talk of drugs and alcohol and my severe knowledge of both. I don't know when this ended; I'm pretty sure that it happened sometime after we stopped talking every day. After you stopped getting eight emails a day because I heard a band that you liked; or from you, because a Kings Of Leon concert was being streamed live.  I want it back; you're putting forth some effort. What do you say?

8.)    I kept your secret. Just thought that you'd be interested to know that I really did mean it when I told you that. J

9.)    Hayyyy, best friend. :-D You're brand new to me, but, we hit it off the moment we met and I've never had more fun than that Thursday. Every time I call you, I end up in tears. Yes, you make me laugh that hard. It's pretty cool. I like the Strokes tee shirt that you gave me! It's hot. I like the fact that you know Josh Ritter's music. I like the fact that you have a Kooks poster on your wall. I like the fact that you're gorgeous! XD (Coughapparently,we'resupposedtogetmarried.Hack.) XDDDDDDD It's funny. You're cute. I like this story; let's keep it?! :-DDDDD

10.) Hey, you! I've never talked to you before. We should. Can you dig it, man?