Two Of My Fav Poemss♥.....
Wife Woman Friend [PART 1]
- Dana Gilmore

I guess I should not be surprised that my beginning was his end. After all, we were just FRIENDS. Although IN MY WORLD I was HIS GIRL,so in my mind I pretended to be his wife. Saying shit like, "there's only so many years in a woman's life". Right, so I gave him THREE.

Yet he had the AUDACITY to step to me on this Donnell Jones "I don't know where I wanna be" type shit. It wasn't supposed to be like this. He hit me with the FOREHEAD kiss. He told me life was a journey and he was ready to explore this shit, and I was PISSED.

I start pullin' out Tupac hits telling me to keep my head up and R.Kelly picks about when a woman's fed up. Cause I was DOWN WITH HIM FOR SO LONG that I didn't think I could GET UP. Till one day I got TIRED of sleeping on pillows my tears had wet up and realized that LIFE GOES ON and no he didn't choose me and that doesn't make him RIGHT nor WRONG.

And just because he was the epitome of my life that doesn't make me wrong nor right. Like I said I was his FRIEND and not his WIFE. And I should've ACTED within that CAPACITY. And then this breakup would've been "JUST ONE OF THEM THINGS". And not a fucking TRAGEDY.

And ALL the time I spent mad at HIM I should've been mad at ME. After all I was the one that gave him the key to my house, Let him hang clothes in my closet just in case we go out. WASHING all his dirty clothes to make a "FULL LOAD". And let him finish all the leftovers just so the food don't go old.

For the times that we RAW-DOGGED just cause he "LOST all the RUBBERS". And though I showed him MORE SUPPORT than his FATHER,BROTHER,SISTER,and mother and just 'cause those same people dial my number when they're trying to stay in touch. And he received mail at my address "cause he sleeps here so much".

Got total control of the remote control to the TV, DVD, and radio And even though his name is not on my lease got shit in MY HOUSE that is OFF LIMITS to me like HIS side of MY BED and his stash of weed. And I better not touch his shoebox, Fruit Loops, mouthwash or toothbrush. He even had his own set of towels.

But NONE of this OBLIGATES HIM to ME because not once did we exchange vows. And If I knew THEN, what I know NOW, I probably would've listened, when he said it was some SHIT that he NEEDED TO GET OUT OF HIS SYSTEM. But I was TOO BUSY bitchin', jumpin' bad like I was gonna hit him. And in the back of my mind all I could FATHOM was how much I was gonna MISS HIM. And just because I'm CRYIN' don't mean I'm the VICTIM, it's just that I was too SCARED to LET HIM GO cause some other chick MIGHT GET HIM.


And that was MY FAULT, it was MY DECISION I should've NEVER put my HEART in my MIND'S POSTION. But I COULDN'T shake him--he was like a BAD HABIT. And all this for a nigga that was just AVERAGE, doing AVERAGE nigga shit Like TALKING out the side of his neck and thinking with his DICK.


But, I must ADMIT he's the one I wanted to COMMIT to. Either I wasn't living up to my POTENTIAL, or I was just the AVERAGE chick. But I chose to believe that I was a woman CAUGHT up in a FEELING. Both PHYSICAL and EMOTIONAL, who was way TOO WILLING to give her ALL to a man. And though it may SOUND STUPID I would do it ALL AGAIN. Just next time for my HUSBAND and not a nigga I call my FRIEND.



Wife Women Friend [PART 2]
- Dana Gilmore
I'm TIRED of looking out my window seein SHADOWS of you
and I can't hang out with my girls cuz I'm checkin' my rearview
You callin BREATHIN' ALL HARD like I can't HEAR YOU
And every time I hit the club you just HAPPEN to be there too
All I ever wanted was to BE with YOU
But when I NEEDED YOU
I had to COMPETE with CLUBS, drugs, the STREETS and PS2

Out ALL NIGHT chasing women with your weak-ass crew
But I guess when you're in ROME you do as ROMANS do
But they go home ALONE just like YOU
Wishing they would've HELD on just like YOU
Probably callin' PLAYIN on PHONES just like you
I'm so THROUGH dealing with niggahs just like you
Cuz I done had a FEW niggahs just like YOU

I had the ballin type that call all night keep claiming they coming thru
I had the CEO that would bring me dough cuz he always had something to prove
I had the so called God Man that thought he could do everything God can
Thought he was closer to God than the church man
I had the meet me at the poetry spot down to earth man
I had the niggah from the CLUB who was ONLY GOOD for a fuck
And I had a street niggah who kept CLAIMING he was down on his luck
I had a player with NO GOALS no heart JUST GAME
I had the 24 in the studio on his way to fame
I had the control freak who thought he could keep me on a chain
I had a niggah that LIED SO MUCH I don't even know his real name
At the end of the night, they ALL made me FEEL THE SAME
I had a MILLION things to LOSE and not A DAMN thing to GAIN

I told you I NEED YOU and YOUR SHOULDERS SHRUG
I tell you I'm LEAVING and you CALL MY BLUFF
I say a million men WANT me
You say, they can HAVE you then
So when you BEG for me to COME BACK I tell you I got a MAN
Who not just my LOVER but my FRIEND
The CLOSEST person to me so I call him my next of KIN
And know you THINK you OWN this but guess what, he PUT IT IN

And represented for all men even those that act like boys, but we still call men
And to think you gonna fall in and feed me BULLSHIT sprinkled with game on it
But when he HIT IT he wrote his NAME on it
I was COMITTED when he put his BRAIN on it
He and I will PARADE these streets and I'll be DAMNED if you RAIN on it

Look I know you have your REGRETS
And I'm not gonna throw it in your face 'cause hell I WISH YOU THE BEST
But HIM for YOU that's like MORE for LESS
And I just CAN'T do it
You had your CHANCE but you BLEW it.
And DEEP INSIDE I think you KNEW it was KILLING me
But SILLY ME I couldn't SEE the FOREST through the TREES
And I didn't know I was CUT so deep until I began to BLEED
I guess they LEFT out all the SNAKES in the stories of birds n bees

So you can CRY me a RIVER niggah, CRY me a SEA
But that's the LAST TIME I'll LOVE a NIGGAH that ain't got NO LOVE for me