i was enjoying my few days off.. it went too fast :(
i spent most of my time reading writing cleaning and yada. i shoulda at least got hammered or something :D
but nooooo.. whatev.
cig prices have gone up monumentally since february. for the cheapest brand its $4.02... wth? and theyre doing another tax raise next month... icky. might as well just roll my own or quit... HA.. yeah idk what i would do without them when im uber stressed. it helps me calm down when im uber pissed at work.
some people really need to catch themselves on fire, go play in traffic, or jump off a cliff, any would suffice for me. some customers i deal with on a day to day basis make me want to put their face on the grill.. or put their hands in the waffle iron. or something. throw hot eggs at them or somethin. idk. i just prefer they either dont come back or go run into an angry hungry bear. buahahaha.
why do people have to be so obnoxious and judgemental? why do people who dont know me right off the bat just call me retarded or stupid? IM NOT STUPID OR RETARDED SO DONT JUDGE ME MOTHERFUCKERS! i do the best i goddamn can every FUCKING DAY, and i get absolutely no respect.. i try to go above and beyond what i have to do, i work so goddamn much that its makin me kinda crazy and i feel like im gonna snap soon.. just not being able to vent about this when i get home just fuckin sucks. im usually too tired to bitch, and theres no one to rele vent to that early in the morning. maybe im just being a baby, maybe im not "adult" enough to handle this kind of pressure. idk. all i know is i am trying so hard to handle all this bullshit without freaking the fuck out... its all i can do i guess. and combine that with being broke all the time and not being able to pay off my debts very well, its getting a little hecktic. have no fuckin clue how to spell that i dont use that term very often. whatever. fuck it. i want a job where i can sit at a desk answer phones, and type and stuff. where i dont have to run around like a chicken with its fuckin head cut off. *whew* ok i think im done.