Soooo....I've had a long day...well week. I'm stressed out, i'm about to take my last final ever...well atleast as an undergrad! I'm trying to be excited about graduating. But it just isnt what I expected. Now i have to go out in the world and make sometihng of myself. All through college my family has pushed me through school, and i thought they would be excited about my big day, But no...they're all worried about planning something for mothers day. Not once have i heard someone say, "we are so proud of you!" and that's all i want. At first i thought i wasnt going to be able to pull through, and i did! I am proud of myself. What makes it even harder is that my best friend has another engagement the same morning as my graduation. I know she's in a rut right now. Be there to show her support for me, or be there for that other person she loves. I know its hard. and we had a little tif earlier, and I just hope she's not mad at me. Yeah It sucks not having your best friend there for something that means alot to you, but i have to come to the realization that there are other people out there besides me that need her support. I hope she understands why i am upset, but things happen for a reason. Maybe she is supposed to go to the other engagement. I dont know. Im a little confused myself on this situation! lol. I've just busted my ass lately and haven't taken the time to enjoy life. And i need to. I need to go get drunk! YaY! next week is my birthday! and hopefully the skank still wants to go party it up with me. If not i'll be all by my lonesome! Well i need to go take this last final! Wish me Luck!