Uncontrollable Feelings

Whether i hear it or see it I believe it

I cant seem to do anything to release it

It comes from the outside in

It asks me where have I been

I try to ignore it so that it wont enter

I continue to push away for he has sent her

It keeps forcing itself in me

I have been here before continously

I continue to shove

yet it will not budge

Im not strong enough to keep it away

This is not a game why play?

I close the lights my teeth grind

Those thoughts continue to fill my mind

It plays back and i wasnt even there to see it

I knew what happened, allowance? so be it!

No! No! No! I pull my hair out

Temper tantrum is up and about

I need to get these thoughts out of my head, please!

I shake it off but it wont go away like a disease

Finally im powerless and it reaches for my heart

grabs it, shoves its nails in me from afar

I fall to the ground and close my eyes

Pain splashes on the bare floor from my cries

Hate fills ever word spoken out of my mouth

Endless pain, anger, hurrt, fear no doubt

I cant control myself any longer though i've tried

Why? Why wont it just die!

Now its in me full of accomplishment and energy

Energy to go after the cause and kill it blindly

Released like an abused caged animal

With one thought in mind its full

Now do you see what you have done

The slightest anger and i become numb

Coping issue within cannot be dealt

I need someones help!