Dearest Art of Chaos Fans,

I don’t know how or where to begin this letter… how does one put so many experiences and emotions into simple words? I guess there’s nowhere to begin but with the truth… a truth I’ve been facing the last six months on my own.

As of January 2009, Art of Chaos “the band” has come to its end. After four amazing years as a group, the time had come for us to go our separate ways. There’s no particular reason or cause, and you won’t find any bad blood or bones to pick. The parting was amicable and we all remain dear friends.

Anyone out there trying to make it as an artist or musician, I give you the biggest kudos. The music industry is not what it used to be, and trying to succeed in this business is a tremendous feat. It takes an immense amount of work, drive, dedication and passion. I think we had given so much steam to the band and our dreams, that in the end I feel some of us ran out.

I could spend a large part of this letter trying to think of reasons or expand upon what I believe to be the source or cause of this ending, but alas I cannot. I actually spent a large amount of time trying to figure out everything for myself, trying to make sense of it all. For a while it felt like everything that I had lived for had been stripped away from me and that there was nothing was left. I had lost my one true love in life and my best friends, and I had no definite reasons or answers.

After the band came to its end, I didn’t know what I was going to do, everyday facing the proverbial question, “Now what?” Should I give up on music? Should I give up on my dreams? Is this how things are supposed to happen? For weeks I thought about what Art of Chaos had meant to me; what the music meant and what each of you meant to me. So many of you gave yourselves so generously in supporting us. You believed in our music so much, at times I couldn’t even believe it. It was then I began to realize that Art of Chaos wasn’t even about me, that in the end, it was truly about all of you. For a while that thought brought me sorrow, for I felt in some way, by letting go of Art of Chaos, I was turning my back on all of you…all of you whom I love so dearly.

As I hit what I call my "rock bottom", the thoughts of each of you began to turn from a source of sadness to a source of strength. I began to reflect on all of your spirits, stories, the connections we forged, and I found a beacon of hope. I thought, “If people didn’t give up on us, how could I give up on them?” An urge and unrest began to build in me… something told me that the fight was not over, that there was much more still to be done, still to be said. Something inside told me I was not done fighting, I was not done sacrificing, I was not done living and breathing my passions. I was not done trying to make Art of Chaos a reality. Scared shitless and not knowing how I was going do it, I decided that I would carry on Art of Chaos, even if I had to do it alone.

For the last six months, I’ve been grinding away at trying to make that vision a reality. I’m not going to lie, it’s been the roughest few months of my life. Things are definitely a lot harder and lonely on your own, but I find myself smiling again… smiling at the prospect of creating and sharing music, and more importantly, getting to reconnect and see all of you again. I know that some may not agree or be favorable toward this new solo version of Art of Chaos, and I completely understand and respect their opinions. I knew that this would be something I would have to face down the line. I guess in the end I felt that if I didn’t carry it on, then Art of Chaos would have died, and that was not something I could live with, not without giving it one last shot.

I am overwhelmingly excited for all of you to hear the new songs and share in the great big changes to come. So much of the journey is still left and I would love for us to continue down this road together. When you listen to these new songs you will see that much is still the same: the same message, the same stories, the same spirit, the same urge to make a difference in the world. I will always stay true to that and I will always stay true to you.

I think I speak for everyone formerly in the band, when I say thank you… thank you for your constant support, endless faith, and relentless encouragement. You all made us feel so loved and honored to be apart of your lives.

I wake up every day thankful for each and every one of you. You have brought so much joy and light into my life. I hope that I can only continue to do the same for you.


With so much love,


Brian Torres
ART OF CHAOS