It's really easy to cry these days.  And I don't bother to stop the tears.  They're the closest thing that I can get to hug.  I wish I had a trusted shoulder to cry on.  I know lots of people who could fill that role; but it's hard to choose, and hard to trust.  And just hard to know who's not going to get up and walk away when they've had enough.  And I can't bouce from person to person.  So instead of going to anyone, I go to no one.  I cry alone until my head throbs, then I fall asleep.  B/c tomrorow 'll come soon enough and I'll be busy with all its events that I won't think about of the shit of today; until it happens again.  And I'll cry again, again alone.  Cycle repeats itself.