"I don't wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I'm out from under

I don't wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I'll get it all figured out
When I'm out from under "


This beautiful escape
Familiar in a new way
Still entices you down a road
Already traveled.

It's difficult to find yourself here again
I know
Time has revealed this to me
I'm sorry I made this decision for you

These familiar comforts within reach
You are trusted and loved
I learn much to late
Sometimes love is not enough

My trust in you is shattered
Credit this to your deceit
Holding out one hand
While stealing with the other

Locked away in your lonely room
The walls must have surely closed in
I was lying only steps away
I could have been a light for you

I wanted to be a light for you
You were a light for me
You're silence didn't respect us
Denying me the chance to help

Remember when I came to you
With my confession
The lights of Las Vegas
Just a mouse click away

You helped me be accountable
You helped me overcome
Because love allowed me to show myself
In unflattering light

I wish you had allowed me to see you
This destruction avoided
Change would have been swift
My love for you empowered

The past is in the past
What's been done
Can never be undone
Do you really think I deserved this

Love does not seek to destroy
It is not dishonest
It does not present as self-righteousness
It is not vengeful

It seems you wish to pardon yourself
Claim your actions were justified
If love hadn't been replaced by illness
Your choices would have been different

Exclamations of having done the "right thing"
Of teaching me "a lesson"
Lost, transparent and undermined
Because you've paid someone else to play my role

We see things very differently
We move through the world uniquely
My path has blessed me with many friends
You say yours has not

You are quick to point out flaws
You avoid owning your choices
You speak of karma proudly
Yet it is you with an empty corner

You find yourself wanting to be held
But you demonize the one
Who wanted to hold you
Preventing fulfillment

Your actions have inspired change
Positive and timely
But a true friend
Would have used other means

You must live with this betrayal
Wrap it up as pretty as you can
A 30 second sound-bite
Shared with your ever changing "friends"

I've seen your true Self
I love that gentle spirit
Thoughtful and generous
I've lost you to pride

Here is my plea
Reflect on what traits attract your focus
Not everything is bad about others
Have the courage to acknowledge goodness

XOXOXO