some random poetry for your perusal.
Cold
Cold is always my good morning kiss
The poisonous lips that make me like this
Cold is why I always ache
Why I am suicidal when I wake
Cold is the whip slashing my bare skin
As I dress in the darkness I've been frozen in
Cold is what bites me when I open my door
It's lurking in the shadows and seeping from the floor
Cold is my childhood. Every memory a blur
Iced over and frozen, forgotten forever
It will chase me through life until I'm worn and old
My gravestone will read: she's to always be cold
Cold will be my coffin where everything's stiff
Cold is the only thing that I'll be buried with
It freezes, twitches, shudders, and screams
Cold is the way that everything seems
Suicide for Sympathy
Just
I always "just ate"
"Don't know why I'm underweight"
Well, maybe just a snack
Just enough, and only that
I'm just feeling light and dizzy
Because I just don't have it in me
Because
Because I like it
Can't love, can't hate, can't fight it
Because it feels so good
Because I can't, because I could
I'm obsessed, but I don't care
Just ten pounds? Why stop there?
Why
I wonder why too
Why don't you notice me!? Why you do
Why have lunch?
Shouldn't-can't-couldn't have that much
Why all the pain till I'm about to die?
Just because that's why
Rumors
I took a nap in my chair and flirted with some fire
From a cheap-made quick-stop gas station lighter
Thought about stuff I don't wanna share
Cause I don't want anybody to know or care
Kept an eye on the door checked the time on my phone
Checked the other side to make sure I was alone
'Cause my smile's a secret when I'm the only one there
If you were sitting beside me I'd probably just stare
'Cause if I show what I'm thinking in my head on my face
I'd be spreading little rumors all over the place
And maybe they would wonder what was really true
But more than likely they would act like they knew