Something great is about to happen that will change my fate, I may need to re-learn things again although I am still familiarized with it all. I feel almost sick to my stomach with anxiety, like all of my life achievements rest today, within these crucial hours. I am nervous and precautious and pressured. I am trying to grasp reality, but I see so little time, everything is so fast.

When I was a child I had severe migrains, the kind that would last a couple days, this was before I entered my first school, but it continued through and depleated in my mid teens. Usually these migranes would start when I would go to bed, looking off into space and thinking about the world around me. heh. As always. I would get a ringing in my ear that would get deeper and I would scream from it because i new a migraine was coming on. Things around me would be to slow, i was to slow,  and everything else was to slow. I hated it so much, the pain. AND REVERSE Where I was too fast way to fast and i couldnt slow down, but i was reacting as fast as everything else, but i felt.. Its hard to explain i was a child.

 If you think about your vision your eyes the way you see, two spherical retinas capturing light you can mentally understand the "outer blackness" of your vision. Its easiest to focus with a familiar, or solid colour backround. the blackness, now can you mentally...view out of your vision to make it appear distant? I had to be really high to do this. Viewing outside my own vision, your left with space that doesnt actually exist; physically. I will leave it at that for now, and let you try to understand. This is not astral projection.