I feel like the lst few months have been crazy, its been up and down i feel like i am trying so hard, and in my mind i feel like i m comming up so short, i dunno what it is, i know things havn't been perfect but i have been doing my best to fix the problems, but then i feel like sometimes i am on a one way street, i've felt like ive had so much pressure and things going on from my mom passing away to everything else, i just want one thing to be simple....love....but sometimes i dunno what to feel, ive been busting my ass alot for work, and now in a new place where i have alot of finacial responsibility now and trying to fix credit and do everything else...
sometimes i feel no matter what i will fail, i try to keep my head up but i guess when you know it so well you expect it, you push for it sometimes, i feel like i could be with one person for ever through good and bad, but i also feel i want that same feeling to be returned to me, who knows whats next tying to make the best of the days that come my way, man a year goes by quick, i can;t believe its been just about 1 year since we started down this path, and though its not always been picture perfect i still try, i dunno though i just wish it was a little easier sometimes, i feel sometimes its just a struggle, i feel like everything i thought was good is no longer good, or that i am just walking alone, i dunno where things really stand i hope soon it will become clear, i guess i just keep trying to walk with you and hope that it works...who knows i guess