It's easy to have guts on the internet when it's not you being attacked. The things I've been told via messages, comments, etc have never and will never be spoken to me in real life. Why? You can create yourself on the internet. If you don't like who you are IRL, if you are anyone, then it's easy to build yourself up to be something you're not behind the computer screen.


I feel kind of subhuman when the negative doesn't affect me. At points I really wish it did. I'm not sure if it's because I've always had a wall up around me, that it just doesn't really matter to me, or because I'm secretly an alien. I think for people to be hurt by certain things by people they aren't close to it's because they've always thought the things said at a certain point. I refuse to believe that I should kill myself because you don't like the fact that I said that you were polka-dotted. Why use common sense, though?


One thing people can't say to me is that I don't have guts, online or off. I get both sides. I get the really sweet and supportive people, and then I get the scum of the earth trying to tear me apart. It doesn't work. You have to know who you are, online or off. I put myself in a vulnerable position, and I am an open target to being attacked. That's not unacceptable to me, either, believe it or not. I am a strong supporter of free will and freedom of speech. Say and do as you please. But you BETTER be willing to stand by your convictions. Your actions, and what you say eventually have consequences. Whether it's relevant or not to what you said or did, karma will be knocking at your door.


I've personally experienced it. I know every choice I make has a consequence. Whether I choose to bite my tongue or stay away from certain influences is up to me. If I decide to go the wrong path, then I am simultaneously deciding that I'm prepared to handle whatever comes at me. It could be that I'm too self-critical to let any other person decide who or what I am. It could be all of that along with my sense of inner-peace. I had to work long and hard to get that feeling, until I found out I just had to let go to have it. I wont let outside circumstances or forces affect that.


I'm really glad the world works that way because if it didn't we would all be living in utter chaos. All hell would break loose. As ideal anarchy seems in theory, it would never work in practice.


I resent people putting limitations on what they think I should do or say. If my words and my ideas make you that bitter, if you hate me so much, then why are you obsessed with it? In my mind, your need to curse my name and everything that I stand for is a form of flattery. That means you're still watching me, that means you've been moved in some way.


I don't need to convince you to like me, I've never desired anyone's approval but my own. I just seem to bother some people. I've never seen any of the things I've said as extreme, I've seen them as obvious.


Enough of that. Paris Hilton, anyone?


"You can chain me, you can torture me, you can even destroy this body, but you will never imprison my mind." - Gandhi