It is nice to be able to smile again. The pain is still there but I am putting me first, finally, which is what I should have done all along anyway. I'm starting to find comfort and happiness in my life again. More importantly I am re-discovering myself and I am finding that I am wiser, stronger and I know who I am more than I ever have in my life.  I have learned so much about myself in the past year and know that I can not only be a better person to myself but to everyone I associate with as well. 

I feel like I am in completely uncharted waters right now, in a completely mysterious and new place but I am right on path with where I am supposed to be. It's scary yet exciting at the same time…and I'm anxious for every new day. I find myself exploring and doing things that are bringing my soul back to life so quickly and with so much light I just want to fucking scream as loud as I can, the joy and pain and love and tears and laughs and appreciation I feel for this new life I am now discovering…