Today, I start a new chapter in my life.  There are so many things that I want to do and see, but I have been hindered by obstacles, burdens, drama and mostly by myself.  I have come to the realization that I am the one who is at fault for allowing certain people to walk all over me, put me down, criticize me, abuse me, disrespect me, and most of all causing me pain.  I have allowed this to go on for so long because that is the only way I know.  Stemming from my dad, my brothers, my ex-boyfriends, my ex-husband…it’s a sick pattern.  I am the only one that can stop this from happening to me.  I realized this “revelation” from my true friends…it took a while, but I finally got it.  I must do what makes ME happy and stop trying to make others happy so that I can feel appreciated.  Does that make sense?   I am taking charge of my life!  Period!  I can’t wait for things to get better because they won’t.  I have to make things better.  I have to do what is right for me.  I have to be the one to get my life started.  My main goal in life is to travel…all over the world.  Can’t do that sitting on my ass…maybe next year, then it turns into the next and the next.  Well, there will be no next time.  I am going on my cruise!!!  I have never left the country (no, Tijuana does not count).  I want to bask in the sun half naked with a Mai Tai in my hands.  I want to lose 25 lbs so I can enjoy laying half naked on the beach and not looking like a beached whale.  LOL So that means that I have to start eating better and doing the dreaded exercises.  I’ll be happy to swim and dance the pounds off.  Maybe I’ll take up belly dancing?  Or Salsa?  Or Ballroom?  I have to find something I enjoy and stick to it.  That’s one of my faults, no damn motivation and lack of self-esteem.   I also, want to de-clutter my house.  I am a pack rat; got it from my mom.  I am unorganized!  Anyone, that would like to lend a hand in that department, I would be most appreciated!   I am going to be a better person to MYSELF starting today.  If you don’t see me out as often, don’t fret, I’ll be around.  I love you all!  You are the best friends a person could ever want in life!  So mote it be!