Lady GaGa, hopefully, has a penis.  Actually that's not true.

I was listening to the most beautiful fucking song today.  "A Perfect Sonnet" by Bright Eyes.  His voice is shaking the whole time.  And then at the chorus he screams that lovers should be tied together and thrown into the ocean.  At this part, you keep expecting the whole song to just fall apart.  But it never does.  I just felt something inside of me when I heard it.  It's always a really cool feeling when a song does that to you.

I played hooky from work today.  The weather was amazing.  It's been surprisingly devoid of humidity lately, which is pretty nice when you live in this part of the country during this part of the year.  I went on a walk because being in the fucking house all day after being dumped by my boyfriend was driving me crazy.  Sprinklers kept going off at random.  I fucking hate sprinklers.  Probably one of the most wasteful inventions either. 

I was at the grocery store last night with the roommate last night and mentioned to him that I hated bottled water.  I realized I've been using the word hate a lot, and so many things irritate me and sometimes it feels like the whole fucking world is a bunch of shallow idiots that get excited over the VMAs or Transformers 2 and I don't even know how to cope.  And then I remember that a few people still exist that are pretty rad, and I never see enough of these people because I'm always working behind a goddamn bar and when I'm not I'm too tired to do shit.  And then before I knew it I was mid twenties.  I think I'll always be easily irritated by shit like that and it'll probably never change, but I hope I can somehow be a little less jaded and cynical in the future and just worry about shit I can be passionate about.

Anyway, so I guess the dumb internet buzz about a popstars ambigious gender really got me thinking.  Well, first it had me thinking about most of the comments I've read about it (which, yes, sadly i did read them) were kind of homo/trans phobic.  And also that people are always so consumed with celebrity and hating things and judging and just being fucking negative all the time.  And I do it too and it's so stupid and lame and just uninteresting.  Basically I'm giving myself a goal to just be more productive and open and passionate.  "Cause it's just what you must do, and nobody does it anymore."

I actually think Lady Gaga's schtick would be cool if her music wasn't so crappy.