UPDATE:  This is still going on and then some! I am sooo disapointed and not sure how to handle it!! I just want to cry!!!!

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Ok something has been bothering me for days now and I need to get it out. Alot of you know or I have mentioned to you about my life growing up. But for those of you that do not, basically, there was alot of abuse in my household. Be it pyhical, mental, drugs, alcohol, you name it it was there. Now when it comes to drug use, my close family and friends now extactly how I feel about it all. My brother Peter has now been clean for more than 6/7 yrs now and I am soooo very proud of him.

Trust me, it was not fun to live with. And to answer anyone's question, NO I NEVER did any type of drug nor cigerettes. Yes, I did drink back then, still do, but that was out of control for a time. There were yrs when I didn't even talk or see my brother Pete, Manuel for that as well. I kept myself far apart from that destruction. Still do!

With that being said, some things have come up. I have lots of family and close friends(family) that are on my friends list. Cousins, Neices, Nephews, 2nd Cousins, 2nd Neices & Nephews, you get the picture. I feel that there is someone, in my family, that has tried, and/or doing some things that they should not be. You know who you are! Yes, it is noticable and only time will bring this out in the open. I truley hope BIG time that you tried it for the meer pressure of it and that is that. Cause I'm telling you now, I WILL NOT BE A PART OF IT or your destruction! Count on that! Just know that I love you and am here for you if you need to talk about it!

Life is way to presious and short for me to re-live my past! Again I love you and am always here for you!

Thanks all for listening....