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Fidelis Maximus

Fidel Amos


Last Updated: 6/15/2009

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Gender: Male
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 32
Sign: Pisces

City: New York City
State: New York
Country: US
Signup Date: 9/15/2006
Wednesday, February 20, 2008 

Current mood:  disgusted
Category: Romance and Relationships
First and foremost, to all of the women in the world out there that TRULY know me (like my mom, and Babymamma, and maybe 2 or 3 more), please ignore this. Because you know how I get...I get moody, and then I say things that I don't mean. Well this time I mean it, just not for you few.

To all of you OTHER bitches...please read below...

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I've decided I f**king hate you.

That's right...ALL of you. It's pretty much impossible to single out one of you without covering all the basis, so for now, f**k you ALL.

"Why ALL of us," you ask?

When one kid screws up at football practice, they ALL run laps. When someone's slackin in the military, they ALL do pushups. When one apple's bad, they throw out the bunch.

So as far as you're concerned, you're ALL on my hit-list...you trifling-ass bitches.

With your beautiful faces, your just-done hair, your breasts and your vaginas trying to control the world...walking around like your s**t doesn't stink just as bad as mine does. Ignoring those less pretty than you...bitching and moaning about those that ARE prettier than you.

It's YOU that I hate.

Screaming about sexism and chivalry and equality...while at the same time stepping all over me every opportunity you get. Pretending to actually care about me when deep down inside you just need me around because I can change a lightbulb, adjust the vcr, and record your stupid f**king Desperate Housewives without burning down the entire house...

It's YOU that I hate.

Stepping in the club like you f**king own the place...joining my table, making drinks for all your little supermodel bitch friends, smoking my pot, making fun of how my REAL friends dress...and then laughing outloud when I ask for your phone number because I THOUGHT that you might be interested. Of course I thought you were interested, because you've been hanging around me for the last 4 hours, sucking up all of my resources!

It's YOU that I hate.

Going out to dinner or a movie, making me pay for everything, complaining the whole f**king time about how bad the food is, or how long the walk is, or how horrible the weather is. And then never calling back...or texting back...or emailing back...

It's YOU that I hate.

I try and try and try consistently to be a gentleman. I try to treat you with respect, and to put my needs after your needs. I try to listen to you when you speak, even when your stories f**king suck and are long and boring. I try to stand up for you when society tells you to shut your mouth, and get back in the kitchen and make the kids their lunches. I try to make you feel like you're the queen of the world...

...but you know what?

All that s**t stops today.

Maybe Snoop Dogg was right. Maybe bitches ain't s**t but ho's and tricks. Maybe it ain't no fun unless the homies can have some. Maybe that's why we even HAVE 1000 negative words to describe women. At some point every woman's been called a slut, ho, trick, bitch, cunt, dyke, smut, puta, cocktease and all those other imaginative words. Maybe it's because it's true.

In the past I've tried to stop men from using these words. In the past I've tried to stand up for women all across the world. In the past I actually minored in Women's Studies, because I BELIEVED that was how things should be. I've tried to bring knowledge to my other male friends...to teach them not to cheat on their wives and girlfriends. To teach them that daughters and mothers and sisters should be respected, and honored and LOVED...and not raped, and stepped on, and beaten to within an inch of their lives because they're women.

Well all that s**t stops today too.

From now on I'm going to be like every other guy I know. From now on I'm going to ignore the ones that say that they "love" me. From now on I'm not opening doors for you, or paying attention to you, or caring about you. As a matter of fact, from now on if you've got a vagina and you even LOOK at me wrong, I'm gonna burn through you like Wilt Chamberlain.

Why..?

Because I CAN.

Because I tried to be nice...I tried to fall in love...I tried to be a REAL man, a respectful, courteous, intelligent, attractive man for 31 years now. I cook, I clean, I go down, I'm funny, I'm decently attractive, I believe in God, I'm a decent father, and I'm loyal.

All it's done is make me bitter, and angry inside. All it's done is bring me tears, and loneliness, and sorrow.

Well you know what?

All that s**t stops too.

From now on, don't f**king smile at me. Don't ask me out. Don't ask me what I'm doing on the weekend so you can come and join me. Don't tell me how funny I am. Don't tell me I'm cute. Don't even f**king talk to me unless I address you first. I'm not buying you anything, I'm not giving you anything, I'm not doing you any favors anymore...

I'm through being the "nice guy". Because the nice guy finishes last. The nice guy is some stupid f**king chump that spends his whole life trying to treat every woman as if it were his mother only to die alone...in bed probably...alone. And to prove my point, the nice guys get all the girls anyway while I get overlooked...so why the f**k WOULD I wanna be nice to you anymore..?

Now I'm just going to concentrate on ME. I'm going to get rich, I'm going to get out of corporate f**king America, and I'm going to do it without YOUR help.

Because the truth is, you were never really helping me in the first place.

Wanna know why you can never find that man that's perfect for you..?

Because you keep kicking me to the curb...

...you trifling-ass ho.

- Fidel

PS. And yeah, the reason you ALL get s**t on is because I had my heart broken...again. And I thought it might be a situation that I could enjoy, for a good long time...again. But I got dissed and dismissed...again. I got led to believe that maybe I should get my hopes up because maybe this time things would be different...AGAIN.

Thanks for that.

Thank you very, very, VERY much my love.
Juliet Annerino

 
I'm sorry you had your heart broken, Fidel. We've all been through that. I'm sure she wasn't worth your love anyway. How could she fail to appreciate you? Your intelligence, talent, kindness and yes, the beauty is nice, too...Good ridance to her! You will recover.

IF it makes you feel any better, I think you are one amazing guy! Wish you were out here in LA!

Peace & Love,
Juliet
 
Posted by Juliet Annerino on Wednesday, February 20, 2008 - 8:42 PM
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JC

 
Ok, so skip my last comment. HOLY $!7 MAN! Now that you see the forest from the trees whatcha gonna do now? I mean other than running over another woman, making her bitter and oppressive to the next guy. Dont get me wrong, what happened to you has happenned to all guys (hell you know me and the mess I have been through) but all you are going to do is continue the situation. But if you need help throwing rocks, point me in the right direction and it will be handled. What are friends for right?
 
Posted by JC on Wednesday, February 20, 2008 - 10:26 PM
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Michelle

 
WOW, Fidel- You really know how to use your blog to express yourself! Well I'm sorry that things didn't work out. I don't know the reasons or the situation but I do know what it feels like to have your heart broken...so for that...my heart truly goes out to you! Hang in there and keep blogging!
 
Posted by Michelle on Wednesday, February 20, 2008 - 10:58 PM
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Virginia Lee

 
you said cocktease.. LOL
 
Posted by Virginia Lee on Wednesday, February 20, 2008 - 11:27 PM
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Phoenix Byrd!

 
Chuuuuuuch !!!
Been dere ... done dat .. You need your boys, beer and strippers... I see my boy needs an intervention !!
Hit me wit ya number again .. I got this
 
Posted by Phoenix Byrd! on Thursday, February 21, 2008 - 12:56 AM
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Phoenix Byrd!

 
Wow Fidel.. I glanced through this at work and felt I could relate... I really read this slowly.. yo for real, this was/is me; eloquently articulated with the raw feeling only fresh bitterness can muster.. Many of us have been there.. hell I'm there now .. for real, holla at me and the Stella's are on me ..
 
Posted by Phoenix Byrd! on Thursday, February 21, 2008 - 2:04 AM
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Lil Miss Sassy Pants!

 
Is it possible to reverse everything you said except the boys are the dumb dumbs and the girls are the freaking awesome ones? Cause I can totally relate but I don't have a penis. New York City has so many people yet I can see how someone could be very lonely here. One day we'll find great people that really like us and are compatable in every light - comedy, religion, love making, ethics, all of that crap Dr. Phil yip-yaps his jaw about. And then you and me and our fabulous new partners will make a lot of money, buy an island, and move out there. We will be Kings and Queens and it will be a total dictatorship. There will be no ignorant, selfish, chickenhead, bugaboo's allowed. Anyone that doesn't agree will be punished however we see fit. I'm thinking being forced to watch The Wizard of Oz repeatedly while eating my mothers hot chili with no beverages in the hot Kansas sun while sitting on a itchy hay stack is a good start.

And although I don't smoke I'm willing to legalize it for you in TiffanyFidelLand.

This could be fun! This could definitely be fun!!!!!

Hugs!/Tiffany
 
Posted by Lil Miss Sassy Pants! on Thursday, February 21, 2008 - 2:41 AM
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Phoenix Byrd!

 
Wow Miss Sassy.. utopia... sounds nice.. I might even be willing to revert to my nice guy ways and come out of retirement, and go back to my non-cheating, one woman man self.. But of course this is a fantasy..
 
Posted by Phoenix Byrd! on Thursday, February 21, 2008 - 3:51 AM
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♠Lucky 13♠

 
My advice:

"If you want to be happy for the rest of your life
Never make a pretty woman your wife
So for my personal point of view
Get an ugly girl to marry you

A pretty woman makes her husband look small
And very often causes his downfall
As soon as he marries her then she starts
Doing the things that will break his heart
But if you make an ugly woman your wife
Then you will be happy for the rest of your life
An ugly woman cooks meals on time
She'll always give you peace of mind

So if your friends say you have no taste
Go ahead and marry anyway
Though her face is ugly her eyes don't match
Take it from me she's a better catch

Say kid yes
I saw your wife the other day, uu huh
And she's ugly
Ha ha but she sure can cook

If you want to be happy for the rest of your life
Never make a pretty woman your wife
So for my personal point of view
Get an ugly girl to marry you"

~Jimmy Soul
 
Posted by ♠Lucky 13♠ on Thursday, February 21, 2008 - 6:12 AM
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High~Priestess

 
Fidel, you don't deserve that and not everyone's like that. In order for things to change around you, you have to change things in order to attract what you want. Go rent 'The Secret.' You are right to concentrate on yourself, but don't change who you are. Don't listen to what they tell you, look into their eyes......pay attention.... and then the answers are simple. I applaud your honesty and send you a hug.
 
Posted by High~Priestess on Thursday, February 21, 2008 - 7:14 AM
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Jeena
Jeena B.

 
Hi, you don't know me, I saw my brother (Mel) posted a comment and I read what happened. I am sorry to hear what happened. Normally I would not write anything but this is just "wow" that 's all I can say right now. I hope you get thru this and I am pretty sure there is a lot of support for you. Yes, these bitches are crazy and make a bad name for women like me who's just trying to get by with a nice guy!!! LOVE, PEACE AND RESPECT!!
 
Posted by Jeena on Friday, February 22, 2008 - 6:21 AM
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Nikki

 
Fidel,
I've told you this before andI'll tell you again... You are an amazing man. A hard act for any man to follow.

But you are a Picean Prince on your way to being a King. You and I know that we learn from our heart break and come out stronger. We also know that WE put ourselves in the positions that we do with our soft hearts.. yea.. we can can pussy.

Every heartbreak you've had, you learned something about yourself.

SHE will come. SHE will be amazing. but not before it is time. Continue to be beautiful you and deal with the hurt the way you know how.. WOLLOW in it. because strangley we dont get past anything until we've made ourselves totally sick of it. But when you emerge.. You will be F@king UNSTOPPABLE.. and the "bitches and hoes" will Choke On it!

I love you Fidel!!! XOXO
 
Posted by Nikki on Saturday, March 29, 2008 - 1:40 AM
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Phil Gates

 
Yo my dude...
this is some REAL shit...matter of fact probably some of the reallest ish I've seen on this myspace thang where everybody is concerned with making themselves look good..suckers :-) you should license this shit, can't remember last time I enjoyed reading sth as much as this..
peace
 
Posted by Phil Gates on Friday, July 25, 2008 - 9:20 PM
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