Tormented.
A dire want, a struggle. Something tries to push you forward but you just can't do it for your life. The chances of you snapping are getting progressivly higher every waking moment. All of this, but there arn't any signs to be seen. Concealed in the not so calm interior of the human body.
For some reason, the first reaction to this is to cram it even further within your mind. And it "works" for a given, brief amount of time. Until a ceratin something causes the brain to realize all at once that what you want is what you have to strive for. This sounds like something that happens quite simply, but subtle inner emotions tend to add up faster than you would expect. You unconciously have let it happen and with this comes the most unbearable amount of stress that a person can inflict on themselves.

Life is all about striving. The burn, the want, the desire, the reward. You get up in the morning and start to wonder what is in store and how you intend to further progress on whatever your "goal" may be. So all through the day, you conciously and unconciously are working toward your inner most goal, the thing that defines you. Purpose is a word thrown around a lot these days. "I was put on this earth to so and so." "My life's purpose is to so and so." The word is so commonly used, it seems to have lost a lot of it's meaning.
Purpose is not something that you get a sudden revalation about from the letters in your Alpha Bits(anybody remember those?), experience is all that can determine it. What people don't usually realize is that it takes themselves to discover what their purpose is because you arn't born with one. The only thing you're good for as an infant is pissing in the literal tense and pissing off others. A god doesn't just set you on the face of the Earth and says "Do my bidding in THIS catagory" "THIS is what I want you to do when I put you in this women's womb." Sorry people, just doesn't come that easily.

Struggle.
Yet another word commonly passed around. This is used a bit more commonly in the right way, such as my struggle with cervical cancer or my struggle with my weight. But still a misused word nonetheless. "My day was a struggle" is used probably more than anything else. This coming from the suburbia middleaged man who's biggest worry is what line was it that was so funny on that youtube video in the office today. But I digress from my point.
I'm meaning to relate this to the passage on purpose above. Purpose and Struggle are both commonly misused words but they are also similar in the fact that one follows the other, just like in this nice little blog. With purpose, comes a great deal of struggle. What you want most is never going to fall in your lap; and the sooner that's learned the better. The basic human want, from my entirely uneducated personal point of view, is predestined to be the hardest thing to achieve. Because of this, the words greed and obsession are created. The struggle continues.

Greed/Obsession.
Greed is often used in terms of the obsession of wanting money, at least that's the first thing I think about when I hear that word.  Greed and the nature of being greedy is one of the most human characteristics that I can imagine. One always is in a state of constant want. The Rolling Stones best describe what I'm trying to say in the song "Satisfaction", which I'm sure everyone reading this blog has heard. "I can't get no satisfaction. And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try. I can't get no satisfaction." This goes for every human being on the planet. Even when you achieve what your purpose might be, there's always something more that you feel could make things better. You feel that perfection is just EVER so close, you just have to take a step further, and another, and another (and so on and so forth). And as much as you would like to believe, your greed, whether it shows on your exterior personality or your interior, will always be intact. Though some less than other, everyone naturally wants the best of the best. Everyone wants to be top dog. It's human nature.
Obsession.
A fine line must be drawn between greed and obsession because the two are very similar. Both involve the struggle for something/someone etc. They both involve the strive for something that will never fully be surpressed. But the difference lies in what you can do to control them. Greed is simply human nature and can only but surpressed and never fully left. But the difference between them is that obsession can be fixed, "cured" in a sense. But to "cure" obsession, you must go through a struggle to reach your purpose. This can only be obtained through putting yourself in the mindset that you want ONE thing. And this one thing is a dedication. Something that the whole of the North Korean army couldn't stop you from achieving. Obsession is only a progressive form of greed. When it is "cured" through the endless work that you put forth to the situation, it returns to the natural state of greed, except now for a different situation (because your obsession has been conquered and you have achieved your goal/purpose)

Now when I say the word cured, I don't intend for it to mean anything but this.
The person has fixed him or herself through simple dedication and a positive mindset. Given that the situation may not work out to his or her liking, he or she has also found a way to hurdle over his hardships through equally hard work and determination.

The last thing I mentioned is an extremely difficult thing to resolve and explain. So many different ways of resolving things. Everyone is different, which in turn makes everyone have different reactions to different situations. Therefore, how a person deals with the hardships of a situation is unique, and there is a unique way of returning them to the state of mind that they should be in despite what they have worked so diligently for and not accomplished.
So simply put, the only way I think I could vaugely describe the workings of the mind after putting every ounce of yourself into a situation and failing is that no one but the person afflicted can be of any use to themselves. Others are able to help but not all on their own. The cooperation of the one who has "failed" is always neccessary and to prove my point, they let others help them, therefore they are helping themselves.

But the only option is never failure. There's always something that can be achieved in any situation. As insignificant as it may be, there is always something that can be achieved. It's like the saying (I'm paraphrasing) "If you were able to go back in time and you killed a butterfly, it could drastically alter the past". Every little thing counts. Everything that you do is accounted for. Not in the way that a lot of people look at it, religiously, but in the fact that anything you do will affect something. Whether it is noticable or not, your actions will affect someone, something, somewhere. But achievement is a nice little combination between chance and determination. Excuse my repetition but if you want something badly enough, consequences have already passed through your mind. You've weighed them out (probably numerous times) and decided that whatever may come as a turnout in the end, you've braced yourself for it and when all is said and done, you know that you did everything you could do, and that you have no shame about what you did in the aftermath.
And then, if all goes right, if you've worked your way atop all of your struggles to get to your purpose, and with that little bit of chance that you take, it's there.
Nothing more needs to be said or done when it happens, simply take in the moment for all that it's worth. Know that you tried to the point of mental exhaustion. Know that everything you did was worth every second. Know that without any doubt, you would go back and do it all again if you had to.
And then there it is.

Relaxation.
Your body rests, all pain goes away, everything is right.
Whether this be realistic thinking or not, there isn't a feeling better.
The gray clouds that darkened what you believed would be the outcome have lifted and have turned into a warm sun of success.
You look back and realize that to get here, all the pain, the struggle, the obsession.
Everything was worth it.
 
You sleep to dream , you work to die,  you pray for love, and you live to try.
Nothing less and nothing more.