There are alot of times when people want to become more than what they are, more than what they have been, and go farther than they ever expected to go. some get late starts on this road and others are just born at the right time and under the right circumstances , with the right mindset and support that can help them do what it is they set out to do.

some are broke and work their way to where they want to be off of sheer will power alone.  others need that extra push. i think I'm one of the ones who needs that extra push at times.  that subtle voice from a family member or a good friend that helps you to dig in to a part of yourself that you never knew existed. there are times when will power may not be enough for some. it could be anything from an attempt to quit smoking to refraining
from having a lead foot.

there are times when we all say we're gonna do something that would normally be hard for us to do and then , proceed to put it off until it's to late or we honestly and truly have
the time to do it.

i've been making an extremely serious attempt at doing things i always felt that i was built for yet always had an excuse as to why i shouldn't do them. now some of the reasons were solid.  reasons like  my mother didn't have the money to send me through martial arts for as long as it took. or there weren't any ( insert something here) that were close enough for me to travel to in order to do it.


well now there is no more room for excuses. this area is full of things that can be taken advantage of if i really want it as bad as i say i do.  i actually found confidence in my two new trainers who pushed me to the point of exhaustion and beyond it.  my boxing coach told me " it's easy to just say "fuck it" when you're the only one around and there is nobody around  to help you to get to that next level by not only telling you the process but going through it with you step by step


he also told me that the level of confidence, true confidence , has to be at all times above your actual level . what it does is makes you want to constantly be more than what you are at that moment.  some people think confidence can be bought. they are right. it can be bought.  but it's not an authentic and validated form of confidence.
because what happens if you loose all that you spent so much time and money on?
what are you gonna do then?

what if you did all that because you thought your boss was going to get you a promotion or so that the girl/guy you work with or spend loads of time with will see you in a different light... and you didn't get any of it? not the promotion,the girl/guy,nothing?

it's just my humble opinion but most would feel really bad about themselves.
and that in and of itself only leads to issues like having complexes about things.
one person can only to so much( then there's visa! ok ok. i'll stop.). and even if you fail at something , you know that you gave it EVERYTHING  you had in order to achieve your goal and none can take that away from you.


do it for any other reason but yourself and you stand more of a chance of being let down in the long run. fake confidence is the easiest to get and the fastest to destroy.
why? well because it's fake.

confidence is built by doing and doing again. not by letting others do it for you.

others are there to give you that push. you have to do the rest yourself.