Why is it that when i find someone i really like and i introduce them to my friends i always get screwed in the end i mean either im not with them and my friends know i like them but they go for it anyways or im with the guy then all of a sudden my other friends are like attraced to them and they aqre attracted to my friends and i always get hurt my life does suck and i hate it i mean some days i just wish i would go to sleep and never wake up or that maybe i should die a tragic death because i was upset over something like that and they knew why so they can feel bad i dont know but i just wish that people would stop treating me like shit like i was nothing like i dont even matter. I hate being the jeaous girlfriend but it cant be helped especially when you know somethings up you just cant prove it and you wished that your man wouldnt keep secrets from you but tell your best friend because he feels more comfortable telling your best friend yet your there girlfriend and you feel like you should be able to talk about anything that you should be able to know how they feel and you want there to be no secrets but they feel like they cant talk to you which i think is crap because i feel i can tell the person im with everything i think they should know and if they shouldnt know then dont make it obvious that you and his or her bestfriend are talking about something personal that you cant know even though you havent known the person that long and youve introduced them to your friend i mean i should be able to introduce my boyfriend to my friends and not feel threatened that they are gunna steal him from me or there gunna get to close you know i shouldnt have to be jealous i should be happy that my friends get along but no im crying all day long because i think somethings going on and there having time to them selves and im not invited and i dont know that they are together haveing fun with my other friends i dont know well heres my situation my boyfriend has been hanging out with my "best friend" Rosanne and i introduced them to each other and she now spends more time with him then i do and she is calling him all the time and wanting to be around him and jump all over him and talk to him like hes her boyfriend whe she has a boyfriend who loves her so much and takes care of her i mean me and her boyfriend are friends and we work all day him to support her and me to at the moment spend my hard earned money to buyu him and me ciggarettes because icare about him but no he has to go stab me in the back and go hang out with her by them selves tonight in the mean while im sitting at home wondering where my boyfriend is so i call her boyfriend who is like my really close friend to find out that her and Adam (my boyfriend) are together and she tells him that he can spend time with his friends by himself tonight and that i was supposed to be with them and i havent seen or heard from either one of them so her boyfriend comes and picks me up with our friends and we go chill at her cousins house who is now so pissed off at her because she is doing this to us and Adam is about to get his ass beat and it was only kept from happening in the first place because he was with my and her cousin respects that hes my boyfriend and that i would like to keep him for a while at least but its only been like 8 days and hes already screwing around on me so here i am writing this long ass thing because im always picking the kind of guys who like to treat me like shit i dont know what the fuck im gunna do?????