Bleah I don't really know what this is all about..

But I'm just fed up of my mood swings lately. My lows are alot lower than they have been for a long time, even though on the whole I'm happier than I have been for a long time. Now I have love, security and the intimacy i needed and craved all these years I shouldn't feel shit anymore. I sometimes feel guilty and pissed off with myself for feeling like this.

Maybe it's because I skip my medication some days? Both prescription and my huge concoction of vitamins and such. I'm not eating no where near as much as I should. I don't really want to slip back into old ways as that only ends in the thing I fear the most. I hardly sleep either. I'm guessing all these may add up to the mood swings.

Anyway enough of that. Just felt like getting that off my chest and having a little rant.

Heading back to England the last week of Febuary to make arrangements for Wedding again. Complications, laws and damn authorities made it impossible for us to get married in March. The venue was free and booked. As was the reception. But damn registrars.... Need a rocket up their fucking ass. Will keep everyone updated and of course, when I finally do tie the knot, me and Dan will share the photos  I can't wait to get my dress.... It's gorgeous, like a fairytale dress... A gothic fairytale, as naturally, it's black! I love it!

Hugs xxx