This week has been gripped with panic. I can't seem to put my finger on the dread or fear or whatever it is that won't let me sleep.

I've been doing really well on my quest to eat better, think better, feel better. Until Thursday. I just lost it on Thursday. It didn't help that Trey struck the TV with some object that created a beautiful starburst in the middle of it. For some reason, the cost to replace the LCD is well in excess of the cost to replace the entire TV. It's just a material object and we don't really need it. But we've had it less than a year and I'm not really in the mood to replace it. So, no high def in the house for a while and the media computer is rendered pretty useless.

All extra money is going into the business. It's the little things like new computers and stuff. We haven't done anything to condo other than clean it and move in sparse furniture. It needs to be remodeled but it's not the right time. We're going to take our picture from the balcony holding up a big GLA sign. I told everyone that they needed to wear their best circa 2008 clothes so we can look back on these days and laugh. GLA World Headquarters is in a 1 bedroom condo in north Austin. But it's nice to be over there. I even moved in an old folding table as our first board table. And we have a white board, of course.

I've been trying to work on the website when I have time. It's starting to look better. I'll post the url when I'm happier with it.

I was dreading a meeting on Friday. I can't figure out what my problem was with it. I was doing a feasibility study for them and it was time to talk about next steps. Actually, it was time to finish the project and get paid. It went really well and I need to get them a proposal for the next stage. I think my effective billing rate was pretty good on this one. I'm almost finished with the online training module for the other big project. And both look like there will be follow-on work.

I've been really working on building my confidence. I'm not sure what it's going to take or what I'm really really scared of. But I'm clearly scared of something that I can't put my finger on. I'm thinking of walking over to Metric and just spending an hour or so with my thoughts. It's only like 4 miles there and it would feel good.

We went tubing yesterday. Friday night, we went to see Beauty and the Beast at Zilker Hillside. Nice family time this weekend!

It's weird how debilitating fear is.