I don't think you're crazy. I think passion can manifest very physically. finding a way to harness it is the only thing to do really.
maybe it is something tragically beautiful, but what can you really do about it except keep going?
 

wow, you speak in such great detail...
but idk if what you experienced was negative or positive.

i dont think that its normal,
and maybe music is taking over you,
but in my view, it seemed truly magical.

 

Hi Verpertine, It definitely sounds like an outer body experience. Make sure to eat enough protein, greens, drink water regularly and do grounding things like walking in nature(or lying on the grass). Taking a bath with a cup of sea salt balances your aura too. It is a time now when there is a massive shift of consciousness going on. A lot of people are having a heightened sense of awareness and this can come in several different forms, a lot of which are very uncomfortable. I do healing work with people and you are not alone in your experience. I have had all sorts of experiences that can also be related to the energy of the place you are in, feeling the effect of certain notes if you aren't grounded etc. Every note is related to the chakras of your body, so for example b can be very ethereal and not as grounding as another. Much to say about this.
You can check out armoireauxherbes. com if you are interested in flower elixirs. I take them regularly and they help on all levels. They have an English translation as well. May you feel wonderful from now on**********************If you would like to book an Intuitive Reading/Healing you can reach me here or jordilotus@yahoo.ca.Take carexoxoxoJordi
 

...wow. So is this a 'preferred list' post? If it is, I feel honored to be reading it. Thank you for sharing it with us.

I had two out-of-body experiences when I was a child, although at the time I had no idea what they were and assumed they were just dreams. Nothing really particularly exciting or amazing occurred, I just floated up impossibly high and close-up to things in the bedroom... and I remember that when the first one happened I was feeling very sick. During the second one I wanted to turn around and see if I could see myself lying in bed, but the moment I thought about that I found myself back in my body. Strange.


I don't know what to make of your experience, but as you say there must be a reason for why it happened. Perhaps your consciousness exited your physical self as energy in order to show you how ingrained your music is in the human machine that is your body? No idea really, just wild speculation on my part. While I'm not what I'd call a religious person, something I do believe is that there is something beyond this plane of existence, but it's pretty much imperceptible to us, like a one-way mirror. Those who have already passed over can 'see' us, but they can't really give us definitive signals that they are there. My grandfather always said that if he could find a way to get a message over from the other side, he would. Nothing obvious ever came, unless you count his and my grandmother's anniversary clock stopping and never working again from the moment he died (he always used to sing an old song about a grandfather clock that "stopped short, never to go again / when the old man died"). But more recently I was questioning why our deceased loved ones don't come back and tell us about the beyond, and this little voice in my head (which certainly wasn't my own) simply said "Because then it would be too easy.
"
All of a sudden the pieces fell into place and it made sense. We have to make the most of life on this plane as if it's all there is. So long as we have no guarantees that there is life after death we should make as much of an impact here as we can, preferably in a positive way! It's a journey of self discovery and invariably shit happens along the way to challenge our strength and will to continue on our path. But I feel our achievements and triumphs on this plane are carried through and recognised on the next step of the ladder, if you see what I mean. And perhaps those who go through life not giving a shit about anyone else and being wasters have to come back to this mortal plane and live it time and time again until they learn enough/are ready to proceed. Maybe we've all been here before, by that logic... might go some way to explaining reincarnation.

Geez, I write a lot of waffle for someone who knows nothing of what they're talking about!

Just thinking out loud really... I don't usually talk about this stuff for the same reason that you hesitated to post. You mentioned before that you have premonitions of dying young... I sincerely hope that's not the case and that you don't go before your time.
I can't help wondering though if your experience has happened in order to give you a glimpse of another state of being, and to maybe illustrate how even without your true 'self' being there your work still leaves an impact?
I hope you will find some answers... I expect they will come to you in the fullness of time either way. And with that I will STFU and drink my tea.
;D
 

Run with it...embrace it...live it...whatever "it" is it's probably an important part of your inner being that needs to be explored !! All the best to you !!!
 

Regardless if your experience was positive or negative I think that if anything is to consume you, music would be the one that you should choose to thoroughly embrace. Just go with the flow. Your music is beautiful and creative beyond anything i've ever seen, even if in a strange way. Good luck with your album, I can't wait.
=)
 

You are not crazy or anything. Just embrace that "monster" inside. You have the power to create art, and that's amazing, most people would die to be capable of something like that :) Ok maybe, they don't understand that this can be a load too, sometimes. But c'est la vie... ;)
 

I know how this feels.

not quite as extreme, but I go days where I feel like I'm just watching myself. I'm either ahead or behind myself.


that's really strange that you broke all of that stuff, though.
are you feeling angry or stressed lately?
 

it is a beautiful gift in dangerous wrapping.

use it.


that's all i can say.

yet again your words left me speechless.

 

I have to say im a little jealous. Ive had similar things happen to me but nowhere near as extreme as what you experienced. At 1st I thought something was wrong with me. Then i realized for me this was a positive thing. I embraced it.
:)
 

hmm i felt like i was just reading something out of an edgar allan poe book (one of my all time favorite author/poets) i dont really get what happened to you but it was compeletly and uterly magical :)
 

i know why I come back to your profile on occassion, it makes me feel wonderfully normal. I think i had something very similar to what you're describing happen once and it freaked me out a LOT. it happening at a festival didn't really help and it took me about six weeks to stop checking for stigmata. it was the best thing that ever happened to me (the stigmata didn't manifest, which was reassuring), especially when I didn't end up in a psych ward for it. I think sometimes music just cuts through all our defenses and leaves us... whatever. Naked in the dark while our soul is being fried by the spotlight and it all gets too much to grasp rationally. But after all, that's why we're here, isn't it? So yeah, man. Nuts. But in a good way.

 

Not to push religion on the subject, but maybe you should watch a video called "They Sold Their Sould for Rock 'n Roll. I disagree with plenty of things this video states and it is hosted by a pastor, but I also think it has some truth to it. Let me know if you're interested in watching the vid but have troubles finding it.

:) Ciao
 

Awwwww dude ive had that happen to me so many times.i feel so fucking sick for days .
only it happens to me when im in class. my parents took me to a pychologist to figure it out and they said the closes thing i was discribing was called hypno-noctunalriatic sense.its where your body relaxes so much you basically start to like daydream. and you can absorb like the energy of our surroundings.
its strange but it works differently among ppl
 

That's amazing! Though it does scare me a little bit. I mean what if you did find out how to control it? You broke parts of a piano. Just thing what you could REALLY do with that kind of power.

 

I can't play a single note but I can sing and this same thing happens to me all to much.

 

amazing. I've never heard of that happening from emotional changes from music before. You are sure as hell not crazy. The account was very sane and flowed in time linearly. You are not crazy. That really happened. I can explain, but it'll take a long time, and I'll sound like an idiot. We should become friends on here to make it easier to talk more about this.

 

Wow... Im pretty much speachless... all I can say is that it sounds abosolutley amazing and yet terrifying at the same time but I would love to have an experience like it someday. I personally think ur not crazy ur just extremely passionate about music and it just took over... wow!
 

nono crazyness promise promise :]
 

WOW u r truly amazing, u r not crazy, and u hav ways with words that i cant even explain! : )
 

Monsters are never a bad thing its when you try to kill the monster that it becomes ugly and wrong ... Free it as you did Your ability to become submerged by your music is a rare talent that most musicians have lost sight of Glad to see that there is still those left who love their music instead of using it like a cheap whore trapped in a motel.

 

Ya know, many things that people experience are only scary and seem monstrous because we don't know what is happening or how to control the situation. Sounds precariously close to a form of meditation that some people never lose themselves enough to get to. Quieting the mind is hard, losing yourself maybe isn't the best description, maybe you just found more that was hiding.


I think it was important if you think it was especially since I would imagine you know yourself better than a bunch of semi-faceless myspacers.




BUT hey! Have a cup of coffee/tea and chill... I think I will take my own advice. Cheers.



 

I think thats what passion is.



Being so into something that everything else just disappears and doesnt matter because for that one moment in time its just you and the music.



I love that feeling.



Because it makes me feel like i am something in life and someday it'll always be like this.
=]
 

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you kno things happen for a reason. Dont look at it so negative.

 

trust me ur not being crazy.
ive only sang at church but every time i sing it feels like something is taking over me so its not u its the power u feel
 

Darnit, I cant give anymore kudos!! >:D
 

Its the passion :) And ur not crazy. Apparently, in my opinion, there is more to it that that.
:D
 

rousing round of chopsticks?
 

Woah, that sounds amazing. I think you should just go with the feeling, maybe it's your body's way of connecting with you, and trying to unleash itself through your music.

 

i believe you experienced this as a way to tell you that physical things (such as the music) are crowding your life...maybe you need to take a break and get away from it all. this is possibly just the beginning of a series of events that will shape your life.

 

wow, i don't think your crazy at all. maybe there is no monster, maybe you were freed by the escape we know as music and you let it posses you.
:)
 

all I can really say is wow...
 

you may just have not had enough to eat that day..
lol <3
 
 

first question: are you on drugs? cuz they tend to do that to people

if not:
music is music, it's not about controlling it. It's simply sounds, but so much more. It's uncontrollable
 
 

sounds intense. I hope it happens again.
 

astro projection,, google it
 

Wow thats really deep, if the music is a monster then its ur monster what u create only u have the power 2 change or destroy, so change it in 2 something beautiful, friendly, or what ever you think it must b changed 2 otherwise if u decide it is entirely 2 much destroy it. Hope this has been somewhat helpful :)    
 

you are not crazy. music is passion. you sing like an angel. your voice is like a calm and makes people wonder who is this wonderful angel singing this tune .
 

What happened to you may occur more than once the same thing happens to me when i create songs that are important to me or are very special and it may not be normal for most but most people dont really comprehend what making a song feels like so to me its completly normal
 

Your passion for music along with all the outside forces youve mentioned seemed to class among the keys of the piano and within you. You were knocked out of your body to watch and hear yourself while swimming to get back to safety. Upon returning to your body you absorbed the magic of what just took place. Please do not waste this. From a musician to musician, you are truely talented and this will only enhance those naturally born abilities.

~Jasontyler
 

ive had that so many times u, vespertine, wud think im crazy and it happens unexpectedly like when u played on piano and that effect so did i, but i played my own song that i made up on the spot so tragicly and soft and slow...i played my own song...with my eyes closed...u r not alone
 

I've gone through that my music my life my one and only yes I can't explain it's more then just a dout. And it can't be simple nothing in the world is simple I know and understand if u want to talk about it hit me up! Nice this was so wow amazing I couldn't put it into words but nice good job
 

Sounds like you had a Musicgasm life changing and terrifying.
Don't worry your not insane until you begin to harm your self and/or others.
 

i don't think you're crazy at all! i think it's really cool that you felt something like that and hope that i too can at least feel that way about something in my life.
 

Read devine revelations of hell babe I'm sitting next to a christian girl that thinks she has an explanation for it. You are such a beautiful person... Wow I dnt know what to say omg...all that self doubt and all of that hate is I have figured out why I have all of that hate and all of those insecurities... There r reasons to why we all have them if you want to know be free to ask
 

Eeek I prolly made no sence just watch the book of revelations
 

i know what you mean i get that way when i write my poems and i zone out and when  I'm done its like i come back into my body,its wired sometimes and all i can see is the picture,  in my head and i can't hear or see anything but my art, but that makes me love it more and more, and i don't know about it being like a monster to me because maybe its my only way to express myself and set my mind free,but if it did be come a monster i would try and control it, and if i couldn't i would leave it for a wail but i can never stop writing,some days i don't pick up a pen because all my poems are fillings and when I'm blank,  i can't write because I'm not going to write something false and without filling.