wow.  it's been a wild month.  they say living in guatemala is like riding a motorcycle and i'd say that that's pretty accurate.  semana santa was pretty crazy and i was swamped.  plus there was some drama at the ngo i've been working at, but nothing completely unexpected.  i am just assessing what i'm getting into before i take the plunge into community development and environmental conservation where the funds are just hemorhagging out.

also on a personal front, am confounded by human behavior.  have tried in vain to reconnect with some old friends that i consider quite close.  perhaps they've moved on, perhaps they've changed their minds, dunno.  all's i know is that i thought no response is akin to withholding a negative one.  call it the cynic in me...

but maybe i'm not cynical enough.  because actually silence is golden.  got blindsided by a friend of a friend who has taken issue with me without me knowing about it.  again i was encouraged to try and discuss this with her directly, but um, hell hath no fury like an angry woman.  she's on the warpath and any assuaging i tried only further enraged her.  it just seemed completely illogical to me that someone could get so angry over things that i was clueless about and that were not communicated to me, esp. since i'm away most of the time.  i am disappointed and stressed out over this situation and it got me to wondering, am i somehow not understanding people that i thought i knew?  is this vagabond lifestyle not conducive to long-term friendships??

do i think too much?  or am i not thoughtful enough?  am hoping at least introspection can be a healthy thing.  am wondering how much of this i'm causing or if i just bring out the crazy in people.  survey, friends?  is alice pissing off people unawares??  talk to me, folks.

about to break from civilization again and life on a boat is at least a lot less complicated.

als