I must first apologize to those of you hanging by a thread, (i realize there are a few, so i must mention it) everything is okay for now, but i am not here to talk about my personal life right now, what i really want to talk about is the drug of choice of the average American: Betrayal.
It is a drug best served Snorted, cut with Coco Puffs, taking turns with old friends, drinking buddies; anyone you hold close to you. sometimes it happens by accident, sometimes you don't see it coming until whatever it is you believe to be innocent that you are doing is interpreted as such. even the best people look sometimes and say 'who gives a shit' because they are human. in as non-militant a fashion as i can possibly muster, i say I DO NOT GIVE A SHIT about the particular problem at hand. it doesn't involve me, i had nothing to do with it, and had no control over it so stop blaming me.
to any decent human being, friendships mean everything. with lovers, roommates, and even acquaintances, friendships make life worth living. i am a decent human being. i'll say that again, Bri (who is not dead), i'm a decent human being, and your friendship means the world to me.
i love my girlfriend. i love her from the deepest parts of me that i had forgotten existed, or never knew of them to start with, and i'm not going to give that up without a hell of a fight.
speaking of which, Bri- you want a fight, i can smell it on your breath from here (which is impressive as i'm pretty sure you're downtown right now), so come home and have one. i'm ready to go and i know you are too.
i'm sorry to bring you all in on this, dear readers, but i need to make one point abundantly clear and i'll let you about your lives.
that point is this.

my friends (all-inclusive)mean the world to me, and that will never change (got it?).