yeah so i love how you can tell someone that you really like them and then suddenly you become distant. as if they suddenly have forgotten you excist or that they are sooo busy they cant even return a hello here and there. i understand busy schedules, but when someone takes the fuckin time to care for you, return the fuckin favor. or atleast have the curtesy to tell them, sorry i need to take a break from talking to you or such. when you go talking almost everyday to nothing or barely 1X a month that should tell ya something right there. except some of us are too stupid to realize that and we continue to try to keep a friendship alive. If you want to forget me just fuckin tell me. stop playing stupid games. all i want is a friendship, someone i can count on and talk to. yeah i was kinda expecting this and shoulda known because i said to them, i dont care what happens afterward but i gotta tell you. umm okay so i lied a little bit, i did care and i still do care what happens. i just wanted a response from you and didnt want to sound stupid. well i guess i was stupid for thinking anything more than what ive been getting the last 2 years. ya know? hey maybe i am wrong and you actually care but i will never know because you never seem to talk to me. you are always too busy, or just forget i am here. you wanna know why i am so dark and i hate opening up to people...because noone really cares. thats why!! you tell someone the truth and they could care a shit less. i am dark because if i let noone into my world, then HA noone can hurt me, and i wont let myself down. so tell me the honest truth, do you even care that i am here? do you even notice me anymore? do you even consider me a friend?

          yeah that is all i have to say...