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October 29, 2009 - Thursday 9:35 PM
Not bloody because I got beat up... but because the Goddess graced me at 10 this morning... This after I had a dream two nights ago (was it a dream? I think it was a nightmare...) during which I wasn't lucid enough to realize I was dreaming. I was supposedly with child and thinking which one of five men I'd have to notify. See what I mean about a nightmare... at almost 50 years of age... What a joke. When I woke up I laughed, but it wasn't funny while I was asleep. Isn't that what life is? Until we wake up?

So I had a few days off... hanging with the lovely parental units at their fabulous timeshare in the desert. Even got in almost 24 hours with my nephew J and his beloved C... fun hanging together and taking the boat to Mikado land for some yummy sushi. My folks and I worked out everyday. We made food together in the unit, saw Amelia, Capitalism: A Love Story, and Michael Jackson's THIS IS IT. My last night there we ate at the fancy Tuscany restaurant... but my favorite memories of the week were sharing with them the notes on my book... and talking back and forth over a Chateau Ste Michelle bottle of Pinot Grigio... Then I insisted they go and nibble on each other and let me clean up... They obliged and I was very happy about that. I took my massage chair and my hands attended to stiff backs and necks, even this morning when I woke at 5ish and found my dad awake and reading the latest Dan Brown book with a stuffy nose keeping him awake. I stood behind his tension and rubbed his forehead enough he could go back to my mother and sleep a few more winks...

Elizabeth Hart, Jaded Soul (http://www.myspace.com/276753456), asked me to write a little something something for one of her lovely photographs... I said I wouldn't have time to do it till Sunday, then put this together an hour or two later.  And, having written it, I sorted out my own decision about which road to take. More on that after I come back from the blood hut.

Check out her page...   (http://www.myspace.com/276753456)





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Which way should I go? 

Choice is at hand? Ready to throw the switch?

Two tracks I could take.

In this moment, with this view, I don't know for certain where either path leads and it's too late to now research options, or pull out my map.

Which path will get me where I want to go?

Perhaps one is the scenic route. Would a better view be worth the extra time it takes to get to my heralded destination?

As the need to decide becomes imminent, my hair stands up and nerves speak out.

Will I make the right decision? Is there a right decision?

Will either option move me forward and keep me humming?

Or will a wrong decision take me so far from where I want to go that I give up wanting to get there at all?

If only I knew the right answer.

If only I could have hindsight at this hour.

Will instinct move my hand in time?

I won't text.

Attention must be on the road ahead.

 
Inspired by Hobo's Road; photographic vision of Elizabeth Hart

journalisa:      http://www.myspace.com/11361311

 

~ Jaded Soul ~
Elizabeth Hart

 
::muah::  *istillhatethatyou'restraight!!*   (laffin') 
 
Posted by ~ Jaded Soul ~ on October 29, 2009 - Thursday - 10:02 PM
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journalisa

 
You are so funny.... I often wonder, what with the emotional skill sets of most men... took me a few to figure out what you were saying. I do have a question about this... many many many request my friendship online when I clearly write about men. Does it seem like I might see the light soon? Or is it wishful thinking? I really don't know. And.... I have been wondering.

 
Posted by journalisa on October 29, 2009 - Thursday - 10:19 PM
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Spirit Journey (Vickie)

 
Whoa!!!  I LOVED THAT!!!  And, I FELT it because I've BEEN THERE more than once in my life.  As "luck" (haa haaa!!)  would have it... I ended up having chosen the road that took me so far from where I wanted to be that it wasn't funny.... then again.... when it was all said and done... it turns out it was EXACTLY WHERE I NEEDED TO BE!!!!  That's how that works!!!  There IS no such thing as "Luck".  "It is what is is because it's SUPPOSED TO BE"!!!!!  Just had to share this in light of THAT (above)!!!!  Thanks for the great write!!!  (((hug)))
 
Posted by Spirit Journey (Vickie) on October 30, 2009 - Friday - 2:10 AM
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Nikita

 
Wow!  I HAVE been out of touch.  I guess moving will do that ... I didn't know you had gone away, but glad to hear that it was peaceful.  My dreams have been UN believable and haven't had a second to actually capture them all.  The roads:  the proverbial fork in the road, the twisted road, the long and winding road, the dead end road ~ I've been on them all.  I love the Yogi Berra quote:  If you see a fork in the road take it!  I think Spirit Journey above is right, we are always where we need to be, so there are no choices, but it does rankle me a bit to think I could have taken a different path at any given time...the parallel Universe always summoning.  Your words to the photograph were wonderful!  As to your comments re: men/women ... I have always felt that we love who we love.  I have never had a lesbian relationship, but I have never held it as a non-negotiable either.  I do know that I am straight, but at this point I know I fall in love with the spirit/soul and if that spirit was in the form of a man or a woman or a hermaphrodite, it would not matter to me.  Talk to you soon!  xoxo





 
Posted by Nikita on October 30, 2009 - Friday - 2:56 AM
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