Why is everything so complicated? I want simplicity so bad.... I hate games and dishonest people... and it seems like everywhere I turn that's all there is. People can be so inconsiderate. I'm a good person, yet I feel as if I have the worst luck in the world and i'm always too nice. I know that I do put myself in situations that do potentially make everything in my life worse/complicated... but I can't help it, it seems those are the situations/people i'm drawn to. I can't wait to stop being the nice girl... I wonder when the day will come that I'll stop giving a fuck. I'm just so tired of everything... i'm tired of the way I deal with things... i'm sick of being so sensitive and caring so much... I feel like I just can't get a break... yet the ones that have fucked up seem to get everything handed to them in a silver platter. At the end of the day it shouldn't matter and I should focus on myself right now... but I can't let it go... too many emotions are in my head right now and it's keeping me awake. I just wanna shut everything out...