Dear Diary,
So it's like 12:19AM and I'll say it's really still July 4th considering the fact that people are still out in the clubs celebrating...and I'm at home.
What. The. Fuck.
These were his words verbatim, " Not tonight...it's too dangerous out there. "
Dad, we're fuckin 20 and 18 years old...let the fuck go.
Don't get me wrong...I love my dad and all, but he's afraid of every gotdamn thing out here in this world! Of course he won't admit that...but it's totally true.
I can't just live life the safe way...I can't live life without a little danger. Fuck that...you need risk. He'll never travel outside of the USA because he's scared even though he says he will...if he does I'll be totally shocked.
I want to travel the world, do as much as possible...life is so short...you can't live life in fear. You really can't. If you're going to do some risky shit like try weed for the first time, or get drunk, do it with somebody you can trust.
Fuck not doing shit because you're 'scared' . I don't act on emotion...just logic man...
I should be able to go out on the 4th of July, and my older brother who is 20 should DEFINITELY be able to go because he's already finished a year in college...and all kinds of shit goes on there.
Today I woke up around 1pm after pulling an all nighter until 5 am.
Watched the movie Australia last night....3 freakin hours long, but pretty good.
Went to Rhonda Cole's house tonight for a Youth Celebration dinner / July 4th party...it was nice...She said I looked like a University of Texas @ Austin type of student...not a University of North Texas type of student...lol, it's ironic how UT was actually my initial choice, only when I visited for the first time, I was fucken terrified. It's so huge...I couldnt imagine being 18 and going there...I'd just freak. So I totally believe that UNT is perfect for me right now...It's totally what I need right now . I can totally see myself transferring over to UT later....but not right now...no way. lol
So she was telling me that a lot of TRULY successful non-local journalist learn a lot of asian languages...like it's really important...and also that a lot of them studied law prior to journalism. Weird much? So I'm going to look into some of my favourite journalists...and see their bios...
I totally want to be successful. I can do it. I've never been this eager to learn...I can't wait to study Spanish in Spain, and just randomly start picking up other foreign languages. I can't wait to start writing and DJing at my Universities Radio Station.
Lol....Jazz saw La'Trayvia & Ashura today...actually they're at her house now...isnt that ironic? Two exes of the family...
LMFAO!!!!!! HE'S EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahahahahaha
-Olivia
p.s.
America needs to wake up and start to learn a little about everything...it's not going to be the same America like it is now when I get older...China is going to be on top...that's who we owe all our money too. lol
I can't believe I freakin forgot! My aunt started choking on this piece of meat at Rhonda Cole's house celebration thingy...it was sooo scary...luckily Rhonda Cole is a Gastro doctor....she performed the hiemlich maneuver on her...it was so scary. After I saw her choke, I totally stopped eating...