My birthday has brought about some startling changes in my life.

This is definately my time to live. I have my plan too... it's pretty strange how it came about! I was literally forced into this. I was forced to see that I need to find myself. I thought I had... I have changed perspective of my life over the last year. I ventured outside my normal routine into a whole new world. And during that time I became me. I know I did. I just hadn't realized at the time it happened. But now I do.

I love, I love deeply. I am the type to give up anything that I can to express my love. That's a good thing and a bad thing. When the time is right it'll be a good thing. But until then I need to make sure I keep my love for others in check. Now's the time to love myself first. And to give myself all the love that I've been storing up, I need to make my dreams come true.

I decided, after working in so many different types of establishments, that my favorite is the bakery. I love how it feels to enter a bakery, work at a bakery, i love the way they look and also how cozy they can feel. I love how the breads look so amazing that you'd like to buy them all, I love the cookies in glass jars and I love delicious cakes and tarts sitting behind glass glistening and making anyone drool!!!! It makes people smile to see those things, and I just love making people smile!

I have known for quite a while that someday I'd have my own business. I knew it'd be a bakery, and I have imagined how the kitchen would be laid out, the dining area and the service area. I have pictured it all... except that I couldn't decide on the perfect location!

Another thing that I have always thought about is owning my own house. I have also known for some time that I'd eventually have my house... but I couldn't decide where! And last night, after brutally being forced into finding out who i am, and what my path is... my mind wandered. I was evaluating everything that I had just been told. The words were sinking in and I said to myself "I have the answer!!!!" This answer came up so quickly. For all I know, it should have taken me weeks to find this out.

For the last few weeks I've been tossing the idea around of purchasing a house in the Bahamas! After living there for just about 4 months, I fell in love with the waters there, and the gorgeous weather! There is a down side... the customer service is awful, no matter where you go. The produce is usually half rotten while being sold at ridiculously high prices, and there are tourists everywhere. But I was a tourist in the beginning. I may still be considered one. I don't care. I was a different type.

And as I sat last night, lamenting in the news I had been given (that I need to find out who I am, and fulfill it before giving up everything for somebody else). I suddenly realized what I need to do. It's a big plan. A huge adventure, but it's my dream. And it's who I am. It's what I want and it's the answer to the questions that have been hanging over my head for years.

I wanted my home to be in the bahamas. It has become more and more apparent to me that that's where I'd love to live... I'll at least have one of my houses there anyway!!
And I wanted my perfect bakery... but couldn't decide on a location....Why not the bahamas!!! It's the perfect place! I have my plan. I can see my bakery. I know right where it's going to be. Right in the limelight. In it's perfect spot. I have my answer. The one that I had no idea would come creeping up so quickly, and with such force.
Now I need to find out how to make it possible... or maybe I shouldn't worry about the how... and only focus on the ultimate picture in my mind.

I'm really excited about this!