Hello my dear friends, it has been so long, and believe me, I have written
many an entry…but I haven’t finished one. I hope you are well. I am very very
well, and quite happy. Dash amazes me; I have gone from awe to a love that is as
simple and powerful as the essence of the word, whose roots are deepening within
me, and whose branches extend more each day. It is so difficult to describe
these feelings without music, without a song, without a spot of nature, a Spring
bird singing, a Summer twilight on the rooftop, a first snow that sticks. I
don’t want to be practical and tell you how I’m living nowadays with a
three-month new person and the musical and, of course, looking for the right way
to get all these songs out of my studio and into the antechamber of your souls.
(What V. Woolf calls the ears.) Life is not practical or technical, although it
takes these to make it as creative as possible. Sometimes I want to write a book
on all that I’ve learned in just three months, but I realize everyone’s
experience is so unique, every child and parent is so unique, that my
discoveries wouldn’t translate. And they are forgettable, the ways one manages
to make everything work, and the memorable stuff requires art to express. Yay
for art!

We actually just spent two very intense weeks working with a lion of Broadway
on the show, and I’m more inspired than ever about the potential of this
experience for my talents. And yet, the closer we get, the more unfinished and
undone it becomes. Also with the album, I’ve experimented with several combos of
people I’ve liked allot, although I haven’t hit the right mode for the songs
yet. I truly trust this process, and I have to get it right.

Tomorrow I’m doing a performance at a charity event, the first time onstage
since September, and Dash wont be inside of me, he’ll be having his own life,
probably sleeping. Finn is next to me right now, and I have had a great day of
writing, recording, going to art class, walking around the hood and being, quite
naturally, a mother. I wish I could tell you more details, but there is no time
for details. I will say this, though, when we rehearsed for this show, Dazza,
Rick, Gigi, Huckleberry and I, my heart yearned to hit the road again. That’s
when I do get impatient. And won’t I have a funny entourage? Ah well, I’ll see
you there…when the sun comes out again.

Your faithful songwriter, Sophie B.