Thinking back now it all seems so extraordinary and so long ago. But there are plenty of people going under the knife. I know there are scare stories but this was something different. This wasn't an everyday plastic surgeon. There are also many people who come into large amounts of money when they least expect. Some of you reading earlier posts may just come to the conclusion it is all some mental fantasy. It's not. I spent months in virtual isolation while my body was sculpted. That's the only way I can describe it. I altered my diet, and later began to work out until I was the fittest I had ever been.

The Surgeon made a big deal of what he called the 'unveiling' when clients were taken into a room where they were surrounded by mirrors and, like a magician revealing the final illusion or like a a sculptor pulling the drapes of his latest work or art, the bandages were unwrapped while soft music played in background.

I found myself thinking about Ed but even he was fading back into my memory bank.

There are times when your breath is literally taken away or when a moment comes when you know you have taken a step up to a different level of life. When I saw my newly created face, despite some scarring and blotchiness, I was just stunned. All the years of dreaming about being beautiful had come true - at least I was beautiful in my eys.

More later...