distraught
agonized
my heart is far from palpitating.
i want to live
i want to die
i dont know what i want anymore.
there is music...
bittersweet...
but memories are etched and stitched and branded on everything.
where is my cure?
all i do is cry
i weep softly behind these smiling eyes
wondering what could have been...
one moment i'm fine
the world goes on
the next...
i'm a monster.
forsaken
loveless
questioning my existence
and condemning a potential future.
tell me how to pardon my ghosts.

everyone around me... hopelessly in love
and i...
helplessly dying a slow cold cruel death.
sorrow.
i feel empty and abandoned.
i am empty and left behind.
i cant find the warmth of the sun anymore.
teardrops stream as i tremble
beckoning for love's soft embrace
reasoning...
begging...
pleading...

forget me.
maybe some of us are just meant to walk alone.
maybe for some... there is no greater plan.

we just... be.

shutter not at my words
just ignore.

i'm a lovesick tragedy.