I hold my breath to avoid the swelling in my chest

I put away the pictures that haunt me with moments from the past

The information I need is unanticipated and unrecognized by the culprit

His iniquity hides  beneath his mask of sympathy

Which I eat up like good luck charms

Hoping to see the dawn surpass the dark

Which isolates all hope and survival instincts

Which is bound to be decreased by a nonentity who holds the power

The power that I surrendered

When does it stop…

…The sick feeling in my stomach

…the negativity which strangles me

…the games we play through refutation of feelings

…the tears that escape each night

I hold my breath to steal a single moment in time

A time without regret but full of love and hope for the future

A seeming impossible time as I watch you destroy yourself little by little

And I latch on to burn with you as you self destruct

Because I want nothing else

Nothing else seems worth this breath except the future we started and didn't finish

So instead I wait

Holding my breath

Taking all the hits you give

Watching your obliteration

Accepting all the aches you bring me

After all…what comes after death but creation of something else?

This is where you'll find me waiting

A flashlight lost in the dark

Waiting for a flicker of hope