All right well here's whats up... I admitted myself to the hospital on monday due to stomach problems. problems that have been bothering me since 2004. I keep putting everything off, i guess im just scared. scared to find out what is truley wrong with me. well i have found out that i must have my gallbladder removed. after 30 yrs of not taking care of myself and eating like shit this is what happens people. Well its time for a change.. i quit smoking ,NOW I KNOW i can do this iam prepared to go on a strict diet. No more that 1200 calories a day. i plan on lossing 80 lbs by december, i find out on friday when i go in for surgery... SINCE 2004 i have had this problem. in fact i remember my first episode. I was heading to band practice in pasadena (fort small wood rd),i had to meet my fellow guitar player at his house in essex  before we went there . I  was complaining about how i felt like shit. My guitar player (pat)  asked if i wanted to go to the hospital. i said no, ill be ok. i thought it was food poising. i was wrong , way wrong......... indigestion ,no ..a heart attack maybee. .nah not a heart attack.. but the probleme that lies at hand now... I  will for now on take care of me... let me tell you i belive that is the worst pain ever.... it fells like a heart attack. sharp pains all over your chest and stomach and in your back. you cant lay down , you cant sit. all you want to do is DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WELL ALL IM SAYING IS TAKE CARE OF YOUR HEALTH I NOW KNOW HOW IMPORTANT ITS IS FOR ME .. PEACE SEE YOU IN DECEMBER.........