Where to start? Today has become an awful day. What I wouldn't give to go back to last year and start this all over. How does this happen? How does something so wonderful turn into me having to change my number so your new girl doesn't call me and scream at me? How can two people love each other so much but not be able to be together. I wish he could change and I'm sure he is wishing I could change. I guess I did the right thing proven by the fact he is already over it. I should be to. He never listened to me to what I needed. He had a temper tantrum like a two year old. I want to eventually have kids not marry one and if he can freak out over something so stupid to his mom he will do it to me. He never could give me any space. Needed to know what I was doing at all times. He was jealous of my friends. I just fall in love with losers. I can't spend my life trying to fix someone else’s self esteem I spent a year trying to pick him up make him feel good about himself and it’s a pointless task it never works. It never could. Unless he grew up, stopped thinking about himself all the time, made time for his friends as well as his girlfriend, learned to love himself, and stopped thinking about all the stuff he didn't have and didn't get it could never work. He never appreciated anything and I’m so tired of trying to be everything for him. No one can change that much and it isn't fair for me to ask that of him. I hope he finds someone who can love him for every part of him. And I need to do the same. It’s time for me to go live my own life. It’s time to move forward without looking back. It’s time to get over it.