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Last Updated: 11/22/2009

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Age: 98
Sign: Sagittarius

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State: Kentucky
Country: US
Signup Date: 10/16/2006

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Thursday, December 11, 2008 

Current mood:Uncertain
Category: Life

So,just turned 18 and now all the worry I've had building up over college and whatnot is starting to bubble over.
Things keep happening to make me question what I want to do.I was fairly set in my splendidly gruesome plan to become a medical examiner,do a necessary job,and make a butt-ton of moolah doing it.

Now I'm once again not so sure.My biology teacher basically shattered my dreams earlier saying if I were to apply to a med-school right now,I would be rejected.(A consequence of being what my lovely almost-fiance calls 'an eccentric genius'.Dead brilliant,but very ill-suited to systems such as school.I know everything-my teachers say I could demolish everyone else in the classes-if only I handed in my work.I'm an organizational wreck and once I finish school work it tends to drop out of my mind.)

That combined with being made not only a main character in the upcoming school show(Alice in Wonderland-I'm the Cheshire Cat...or A cheshire cat as there are three for whatever reason who finish each others' sentences and such)but also the costume designer after doodling up a quick idea for what the girls playing flowers ought to wear.

Really...How do I deny such strong cues from the cosmos?Med-school would likely reject me,and my art is being praised.

But I'm not a twit...so I've almost settled/shoved,kicking and screaming-my mind back to the valley of financially rewarding autopsy doing.Art careers are hard to get off the ground and continuos work is a bitch to find-all of this prefaced by 'I'm told that...'.I'd love to go into an art field of some type-I draw all the time,I've been starting to make BJDs,and I've gotten very fixated on the thought of launching an affordable line of Gothic Lolita,Lolita and Steampunk clothes(affordable as in,a whole nice lolita outfit for about $60.I've always had a crazed sense of pricing...charge for what it actually took to make the thing and not much more.Bad for profit,but good for karmic well-being and an overblown compassion gland.)-I LOVE doing those things.I'm a dork about them,and would love to create things for people.

Costumes,dolls,clothes-Am I nuts to want that instead of 13 years of med-school(-that-i-probably-wont-get-into)?I've aspired to doing something with my art for years,since learning it's been in my family all over for generations(Mom is a great artist,dad is,grandparents and great grandparents-step-mom too.)but none of them have pursued it.

I want to,but then my terror of failure and 'what if it doesn;t work out?'kicks in and I timidly skitter back to M.E.dom.

Comments please,any-and everyone,I need advice-I need opinions,I need people who have felt the panic and uncertainty to help me out.

Tory(who isn't ready to be an adult yet)

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sheroine st. patience
Sharon wagner

 
dude, i know EXACTLY where you're coming from.
the whole use-intelligence-to-greater-purpose vs. use-talent-to-fulfill-hopes-and-dreams.

it's a pain in the ass.

but what i decided a while ago is that, i know for a fact that i can enjoy art for the rest of my life. AND i'm willing to work my ass off to do so.
but for a money-making career... not so much. it doesn't interest me enough for me to actually put time and money and school into.

so personally, the artsy fart in me won.
but i certainly wouldn't be taking that direction if i had another passionate, practical interest.
or didn't want to put the insane amount of effort into an art career that would feed me.

that's all i got.
 
Posted by sheroine st. patience on Thursday, December 11, 2008 - 2:16 AM
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Shannon
Shannon J

 
This is very similar to what I've gone through. I ended up dropping out of college for a while to pursue a career. And now, I'm back in school and going for a business degree. I NEVER thought I'd do that. I almost think (from the corporate side of business) that they look for experience first, schooling second. And, many corporations will help pay for school (which is a godsend). My advice is to work at least part time in different places until you find something that just clicks. Take your core classes and get an Associates. That gives you 2 or more years to find yourself. I'm 31 and still finding myself.

<3
 
Posted by Shannon on Thursday, December 11, 2008 - 3:09 AM
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Domestic Frizz
Anne Karson

 
This is tough... I know so much about this. What I suggest is taking one step at a time. Maybe take a career test to see what you would be best in. But ultimately it is your choice. If you are good in math DAAP at UC has a great program, as well as NKU for fashion/clothes designing. But if med school is your passion apply there. Better yet apply to as many colleges as you can! For any thing that interests you and see what happens, what is the worst that could happen? You ARE smart AND talented, if you put your mind to it you could do anything, seriously.

Call me or something, we should talk/hang, I could help with some of this stuff.
<333 Ann/Twiga xP
 
Posted by Domestic Frizz on Thursday, December 11, 2008 - 3:38 AM
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-Shell- by day trik~Z~ by night

 
So- being an inrecognized genious can be difficult... here is what i would do based on the info provided...

go to junior college- (uc clermont is cheap- gateway probably is too) they have pre-med, but also you could do lib arts and just get the basics out of the way...every degree needs the basics... so you'll get started.

Once you have earned your associates degree in whichever you'll have a much better chance of getting into a four year college of your choice.

and you'll have had two extra years to think about which path you'd truley like to pursue- take a few classes from each degree to see what's in store (some art- some science)

College is totally different from high school... I never turned in homework either... was more english than science brained though...

I am about to graduate with a bachelor's in secondary english education--- all of my high school teachers would have a heart attack if they knew... my gpa is over 3.5... like woah... never saw that coming out of that chick...she always sat in the corner and read....

either way- you do NOT have to make the choice right away- and you do not have to put off college until you've made said choice....


good luck in whatever you choose, you are so smart and talented you will excel no matter what
 
Posted by -Shell- by day trik~Z~ by night on Friday, December 12, 2008 - 12:58 AM
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The TWISTY
Joel Nye

 
My main advise is: schooling help a little to guarantee success... but COMMITMENT helps far more.

If you do mortgage your future on college, you gotta knuckle down to eke every dime's worth. Your grades will depend a little on work, but mostly on flawless attendance. I hear Gideon wasted his tuition by moving to his Nashville fiancé. Both are major choices, but one contradicted the other.

I got a career without a degree, but I kept atop with certifications. This decade it is still feasible for me to start a career again, but harder now without the schooling... and for a medical path, it's not optional.

If you find that focus and commitment aren't even in your personal chemistry, you can still succeed if you immerse yourself in your art. But your standards of success may have to adjust: It'll still eat up your time and money, and your standards of material success will have to be smaller than your larger-than-life self. A lot of time and energy would go into testing your talent and marketing your work.

Believe in yourself. Your friends do. The choice isn't as hard as the effort to make any choice work.
 
Posted by The TWISTY on Friday, December 12, 2008 - 2:53 PM
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[Purple]

 
I will try to remember to think on it. All I can say right now is that I used to want to go into Engineering because its big moneys but realized it didn't fascinate me, and I do not enjoy math. So I went with my backup plan, Dietetics/Nutrition. I have always been obsessive with food and evrything related to it so its my calling. I know that even if I will make a 1/3 of the yearly money than with engineering I will be happier with my daily job and therefore I will be happier with life. It will take me a minimum of four yrs college and one yr apprenticeship or six yrs with one yr apprenticeship but its worth it.
Follow what makes you happiest with life while still making it in this country comfortably.
Or find a different major with art as a minor/side job.
 
Posted by [Purple] on Sunday, December 14, 2008 - 12:33 AM
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Azathoth

 
"but none of them have pursued it.
"





ahem....?





Jett did commercial art for an ad agency, has done countless pieces that have sold, has costumed half of fandom, a chunk of ren folk, a bunch of weirdos, pervs and goths--and she got paid--some of the stuff was used on the history channel.
Do I gotta say what I've done? Or mention Goblin King Costumes--in which we did all the design work? Gods, there's people STILL using patterns we made





You grandmothers, Nanny and Mimi, both made cash from their artistic pursuits. Nanny did fine art and Mimi was part of Cymru Studio.






If that isn't 'pursuing it', what is?





Having an art based career is hard, REAL hard. It has rewards, but they don't start at $190,000.00 a year.




 
Posted by Azathoth on Tuesday, March 24, 2009 - 10:39 PM
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